Not this shit again...Please

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I crept into the dorm room, slowly closing the door behind myself, then walked over to the room door. I opened it to see Miles and Seth cuddling on his bed, while sleeping. I let out a sigh of relief as took some clothes and a towel out from my closet then walked out of the room, closing the door behind me. I walked into the bathroom then stripped down and hopped into the shower.

Today wasn't that bad. I ment my roommate, made some new friends, had fudge bomb cake. Miles is actually really adorable and also short. Seth seems like a cool popular person. Iris is also really cool and maybe even a little energetic for her own good. I kinda thought college would be hard but so far it's good. I mean I'm starting professional dance classes tomorrow so that's a plus. All I really gotta do is wake Miles up for class and that's it.

I smiled as I turned off the shower and started to dry off. I put on some clothes then looked at myself in the mirror.

"This finna be a breeze" I smirk before walking back into the room.

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"That's when I realized I was gynesexual" Iris said as she shoved another piece of cake in her mouth.

(((Gynesexual-
being primarily sexually, aesthetically, and/or romantically attracted to femininity's)))

"So have you ever actually been with a girl before?" I asked.

"No..but I have had crushes on a lot of them, they just didn't like me back. But hey now I look like I walked out of a sexy hell and they can't stop approaching me" she laughed.

"So have you dated one?" I questioned her.

"...well n-no...I don't wanna be hurt like that anymore. It's not like I hate men it's just I've lost faith in dating them- no offense to you or anything" she sighed.

"Oh it's okay..I've kinda lost faith in love altogether. Some people get with me to get in my pants then when I tell them no their gone the next day just like that" I looked down at my hands.

"If you don't mind me asking, why did you leave the school back then" she asked.

"It all started when-"

"Your gonna start it off like this" she giggled.

"Yes, now shut up and listen"

*•Flashback•*

I sat down, with Landon, in some chairs next to a bar. I watched as Landon took another sip from his cup...of vodka.

"Why aren't you drinking" he asked then took another sip.

"I'm still 17" I smile awkwardly at him.

"And.." he says with his eyes half way open.

"I-I'll stick with my strawberry soda" I hold my cup up a little.

"Haha strawberry....Berry. Oh my gosh Berry your a berry!" He says excitedly.

"Wha- never mind anyway, can I ask you something" I say as you put down my cup and look down at my lap. I hear him hum "yes" in response causing me to start fidgeting with my hands. "C-can we- do you wanna be my b-boyfriend" I ask.

"No" I hear someone behind me hiccup.

I turn to see Aubrey with a bottle of liquor in her hands. We never really talked outside of school....or in school..or on the phone. She would normally text me only during the week days. I tell her everything and all she does is listen, so I consider her a friend.

"W-why not" I asked in a shaky voice.

She walked over to him then pulled his face over to hers. She started to kiss him with tongue...and he kissed back. I sat there in shock staring at them unable to move. They continued on kissing as if I wasn't even there.

She finally pulled away, after what seems like forever, then looked they both looked over at me. She whispered something in his ear then he snickered.

"That's gay" he laughed. "And I'm not gay" he drunkenly smiled.

"He can't date you because we've been dating for a week now Berry" she said before she started chugging the rest of the vodka in her bottle.

"B-but Aub- you know I like him" my voice cracked.

"Oh yea I know you like him....and so does the rest of the school" she walked over to me.

"W-What do you mean 'rest of the school'"I repeated.

"I posted about you liking Landon earlier" she pulled out her phone. "So many comments" she laughed. "Now if you don't mind I'd like to sit with my boyfriend...in private" she grinned at me.

I mumbled a quick and quiet "sorry" before a stood up and started walking away. I felt tears start to form in my eyes but quickly wiped them away. I started to pick up the paste as I saw the front door. I ran outside and in some random direction.

I didn't care where I was going that night. All I know is that you I wanted out of there ASAP.

*•Flashback ends•*

"Berry I-" she started.

"No" I held my hands out in front of her with a smile. "I got over it a while ago so there's no need to feel sorry for me. I mean because of that I found out I'm demiromantic "

(((Demiromantic-
People who do not experience romantic attraction until a strong emotional or sexual connection is formed with a partner.)))

"Then why cry?" she asked.

"What?" I looked at her confused.

"Your crying" she pointed at me.

I put my hand up to my face only to feel fresh tears on my face. I quickly wipe them away then look at her.

"I gotta u-uhh get to class. I'll text you or something" I say as I stand up.

I sat some money down on the table for the food then ran outside. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in. I started walking back over towards the dormitory. I slowed my breathing down to try and push down those memories. To push away Aubrey. To push away Landon.

I guess I hadn't completely gotten over that.