Wishing for something more // Book two

Chapter 12

Quinn's p.o.v

It's been three weeks since the day everything came down. I've gotten better, with the help of Zamoria and Marceline. Marceline left back to her hometown, lately it's been quiet. 

As for my relationship... it's also quiet. He takes me home sometimes, the ride from school to my house is so quiet. Everything has changed, i've thought about what Zamoria said. I think it would be less problematic, i just don't know how to say it.

Right now  i was in the car with him, he was playing music and he was nodding his head to the beat, tapping his finger on the stearing wheel. I just sat there in silence, feeling so embarrassed because it isn't the same anymore. I looked out of the window as the sun went down and the sky was a mixture of lilac and strong oranges and yellows.

Thinking my heart would be a bliss and so would my future, who knew that could fall apart so quickly with him, it was so unexpected in so many ways. I sighed  as i positioned myself to a more comfortable position.

He glanced at me and he knew immediately that something wrong. Of course it was, he was just pretending to make me feel better. He turned down the music, glancing at me once more. "you alright?" he asked.  I just nodded, not saying a word.

The rest of the car ride was a complete blurr, i wish i can say that i have had better days than this but this really hurt.  I was stuck with breaking up with him, giving him an out because i knew that one day it'll come to this, and if not now then when?

He parked right in front of my house, and i slowly take off my seatbelt. Then i just sat there. It was like  i was sitting in a car with a complete stranger, he hadn't mention nothing about that day. "thanks," i nervously say looking down and tapping my thigh.

So much anxiety and thoughts were running through my brain." okay, what's wrong? we've been at this for weeks," he twists his whole body. Here it was, " I, this is really weird for me to say this cause all my boyfriends either die or break up with me." i murmer, still not making eye contact i could already tell that this will take so many twists and turns.

"what? your breaking up with me?" he says. I finally had the courage to look at him, his facial expression changed, he went from calm to sad but i won't show it.  I took a deep breathe before i started speaking,"you and I both know that even if we stayed together, nothing will change." I say, and he nodds his head looking out the window. " i stayed with you because you needed me and now your basically saying you don't need me anymore?" he asked, his voice cracked like if he was about to cry.

He knows exactly how i felt. " i do need you." i say, "then why are you giving up so easily, we can fix this." he says. I placed my palm against his cheek." I'm not giving up on us and i never have, but i want you to break free, i'm offering you an out." I say as he closes his eyes. " what if i don't want an out? i told you i was being selfish-"

"and so am i! i never considered your feelings till i realized Zamoria told me that it was better if we just take a small break, i know deep down you want this, and i love that your thinking of me first but it's time for a change vincent." He looked up at me as i let go."i don't want a break." he softly says, he looks at me dead in the eye. " i want you to be happy," I smile. "but i am happy! i'm happy being with you, I get it, you still care for Ryan and i don't blame you, but i am happy..I trust you with everything that i got." He begins to plead.

"your not happy, if you were..we wouldn't have this conversation and you wouldn't have broken up with my the first time. I love you vincent, but i need to know this is real by letting you go. " He looks up at me not saying a word, that's when i knew that even though doing the right thing felt so good, it also hurted like hell.