Wishing for something more // Book two

Chapter 8

I drove home thinking about all the possibilities that could've happened. 

I could've kissed him and mess up my relationship that's for sure. But i didn't, cause even when he hugged me, even when it felt warm and needed, no feelings ever came back. As the rain tapped my window panes through my car i turned up the heat and music so i won't think about it as much.

So it's really over.

I was afraid that if i went to find out the truth, i'd immediately get nostalgia of all the memories that were in the back in my head and catch feelings again. Because i am the type of person to do that.

But that didn't happen. I didn't let myself catch feelings for the one soulmate i thought that was going to last forever, but it wasn't mean't to be.

I found someone who wouldn't break my heart, a smile formed on my face when a picture of vincent appeared in my head. Things weren't so bad between us, ever since he asked me out with a cute ring, i wasn't going to stop everything to be with ryan.

I thought he was going to come back, i really did. But i was done waiting. I'm done being patient for people and love, Vincent is good for me.

I arrived in the front of my house, slowing driving in the driveway then  I parked the car and took out the key.

I walked outside of the car, slamming the door and locking the car. I dropped my house keys and a shiver came down my spine.

Someone was behind me.

I slowly picked up my keys at the rain poured on me. When i stood up i looked to the side to see who it was. 

Oscar. So he wasn't lying about Oscar getting out. "what do you want?" I softly spoke. "look, i don't have a gun on me. I swear i won't hurt you, i just want to talk," He put his hands up as if he got caught.

I fully turn my body around facing him, He was in a orange jumpsuit like if he just broke out. "I don't want to talk, I don't want anything to do with you, what you did without any hesitation; How could you live like this?" I state.

" I can't. I'm not at his side anymore, i came to apologize." His posture changed from straight to slouched." Yes, i did many horrible things in my life but my intention of hurting anyone wasn't any of it," He came closer to me and i examined him for any weapons.

"i'm sorry, but you did. You were going to kill Ryan, you shot Vincent instead. Either way you hurt the people i love and you put them in danger, for God sakes you killed your best friend!" I sneared.

He looked down, ashamed for what he did." yes, i did kill christopher, but if i hadn't i wouldn't be here right now or my family wouldn't be alive." I backed away, " you had OTHER options, joining a gang?  Killing my ex boyfriend that i STILL had feelings for after he broke up with me? I'd rather have you in that grave then Chris," I turned on my heel heading for front door but he grabbed my wrist hard.

"let go Oscar, i won't ask you twice." My nose sniffled, "he's going to kill me." Oscar pleaded, falling on his knees as he let's go my wrist." I'm begging you for forgiveness." He says bowing his head.

"get up." hopeless he stayed there, ignoring my command." I said get up, your making a fool out of yourself!" He looked at me, weeping. I clenched my jaw and rolled my eyes. All these apologies, all these crying, everything was just pathetic. "Alex is coming to get me, please help me."

I wanted to turn around, leave him for dead but i just couldn't. "why?" i answered." Because i know you, you wouldn't just let me die," He gruffly states.

"what if your wrong, what if i did leave you to die. you deserve it." I lifted a brow, sounding like theres no soul left inside of my emotionless body." Quinn we've been friends since you've been dating Christopher, this is not you. My mom, she's disabled, she's sick; i need to know if she's alive," He says.