Sensations

DAD

What's the feeling when you feel trapped and see literally no escape. Every plausible alternative leads to a dead end. That's what I'm exactly feeling right now.

The scene looked like one straight out of a horror movie only this time it's no dark spirit at fault. But the one who is, is paralyzed looking at the scene while the clock ticks.

The table lay sideways, blood splattered on the rug, and I couldn't see behind the table. So I walked a little further to see the scene I want to forget. There lay Mrs Moto, pins all in her skin, pierced, a bloody mess and all in all I couldn't function looking at her.

Blood gushing out, and she barely managing to keep her breathing steady. I calmed myself and I could see there wasn't much time to sit and panic. First I dialled 119 along with going towards her trying to lift her up a bit. It only hurt her more. So after informing the paramedics, I rushed out to call help.

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"Don't worry now April, she's stable now. The doctors said she has to be monitored because of a lot of blood loss so I'll be with her here. Any further news from the doctors I'll surely let you know. Thank you again for saving my wife. Now go sleep child. I'll take care of it."

"Okay. Thank you for letting me know sir. And it was no problem." Was all I could say between my sobs and that heavy feeling in my heart.

I was exhausted to a point I couldn't even think properly. Because you know in the past 24 hours I had accidently killed someone, been in a rush hour to the hospital, faced a possible police investigation and encountered many hurtful memories by contacting the person who left me and my mom years ago.

My dad.

The clocked ticked midnight and even though I was exhausted, I just couldn't sleep. Not with all the hospital scenes rushing through my mind everytime I look at my hands, I feel the panic rising.

Ugghhh....I rubbed my hands roughly on my face to get everything out of my head.
Why was there so much blood? And those pins, they were never there before. Something's wrong.

Suddenly remembering the dream, because the day started with conflict and it leads back to that dream I had the day before. Ever since I started having these dreams, strange things kept on happening. But none of it compares to the one I had last night.

I remember everything about that dream like day.

It continued somewhere where we last left. His back facing me and I remember him warning me beforehand,

"Remember there's no going back. Its all forward now. Still you wanna go ahead with it?"

And me being impatient and jittery about seeing his face after all, almost yelled,

"Yes! I'm sure about seeing your goddamn face. Now turn back and let me get this restlessness done and over with."

The moment finally arrived and he was there, right Infront of me. Brown locks on his forehead, eyes turning into crescents with a huge smile on his face, pale skin and saying "tadaa!" while laughing softly in his deep voice.

taDaaA?

Did he just 'tada' in my face while I'm trying to comprehend that HOW THE FRICK DID I JUST INVENT A WHOLE GODDAMN PERSON???¿??

I remember standing there dumbfounded trying to rack up my brain if I've seen him somewhere. But nope. The person was a new face and everything had just got creepierx100.

Every detail of his face is still crystal clear in my mind. His brown eyes and fond expression. Slender fingers where he placed them on my shoulder.

Suddenly everything went dull and gloomy. Like that ever purple sky finally turned gray. That was when his gentle features suddenly changed into something grim. And it scared me. He firmly held me and voice deepening, he said,

"Don't tell anyone. You have to understand. No one must know. It's for you. Remember April, this is the only way. Now go on, you'll be late. Take care."

With the last sentence, his face was back to the fond smile, firm grip leaving, and then everything evaporating like smoke.

But even if he were my imagination, why'd it had to be so detailed. I remember everything about him and his warnings. We're supposed to forget dreams right. It's just a dream. Right?

Suddenly the uneasy feeling seeped back and I started dwelling on the same thought that's been bugging me for quite some time. what if it is real? And what if the dreams and what I do there reflect here? In my real life?

Because I may sound overboard to even myself but I sure can connect two and two. He had specifically warned me not to tell anyone. And whom I did, ended up in the hospital.

Was it because of me that Mrs. Moto ended up like that? I suddenly felt like crying again.

Suddenly my mom came into the room carefully and sat down on the edge of the bed. She must have noticed my thoughtful state because she instantly comforted me.
"Pril, don't worry. It's all good now. And you need to sleep, you can skip school tomorrow if you want."

"Yeah mom. It's nothing. I'm fine now."

"Also the police at the hospital called your dad and not me, don't worry about it. They know him well and must've thought it wise to tell him other than me. It's all okay if you're safe."

I saw here feeling a little low so I said,
"Yes I know. Also it was better with him there, you would have been tired running around the hospital like that, eh?" I smile trying to lighten her up.

"Yes probably" she said almost out of it. "There's also one more thing. H-how was.. I mean..is Tanaka umm okay? I mean did he seem well to you?"

She spoke with so much hesitation. I had to sigh.
"Yes dad looked okay to me. But he did look tired. He also handled the situation with the police and all. Also he asked me if you and I were okay"

I spoke hesitantly, to which she just nodded. Looking away. "Sleep now, okay? And don't worry too much. Your ma'am will be fine. I talked to the doctors and they said it's okay. Gunnite"

With that she left.

Sleep? I wondered. Should I? I should ask 'him' about this. About him interfering with my life. Cuz if he is. He better watch out.

I closed my eyes. Im coming you biTch. And waited to smell the familiar breeze.

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(A/n)Too much happening here right?