Lone Wolf

Saved

After trying my best to be sneaky and cleaning what I could, I take the bodies back to my home. I figured out that the only solution to get rid of the bodies easily is to eat them. But I had never had a human before. It was against some sort of code of mine, I guess. I'd just never done it, I don't like killing people.

Tonight I had made a mistake. But when I got back to my room, I ate them... and I had never had any drug satisfy me the way this does. I felt different, powerful. Why hadn't I been doing this before? No wonder I feel so weak all the time.

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It'd been three days since I killed those people, and I decided to go to church and hopefully talk to the preacher about it (without letting him know who I really was). I felt awful, I hated how good it felt. I wanted to think I was a good person, but I don't think I can make excuses for that anymore.

I put on a black turtle neck, with dark jeans and boots, along with a rather large hat and umbrella to shield myself from the sun as best I could. When I walk in I don't see anyone I know, so I just decide to sit in the back corner. "Decide to come see me eh, love?" I hear someone say.

I look around and see Cassidy sit up in the front row and smile at me. He had sunglasses on, and the same clothes I saw him in a few days ago. "I came to see the preachers sermon," I answer, looking away.

A younger girl, probably around 15 gets up on stage next and sings an awful song about being saved by God. I saw the preacher roll his eyes and Cassidy give him a confused look. Afterwards, the preacher gets up on the stand and sighs, "no sermon today. You're welcome for that. I'll try not to punch anyone either," he says with a pitiful smile.

Me and Cassidy both tilt our heads a little. Where was this going? It sure didn't sound like good news. "I do have an announcement," he continues, "the other night, someone asked me why I'd come back to Annville. I didn't have an answer for her... at least not a convincing one. I've let you down. Week after week I've been just another man that hurts by not helpin'."

I shift in my seat, waiting to see where this was going, "I've not had a single mornin' where I didn't wake up... and have to force my feet to the floor to face you. The bottom line is I've been a bad preacher, and for that I am sorry," he says.

I watch in disappointment. This isn't what I came here for, isn't he supposed to save people? Give to the people?

I see Cassidy lean over the row in front of him, and that's when the preachers words shift. "I can't quit..." he says. And he goes on to explain how he's going to change and be a good preacher for us, and fight for us. It was kind of beautiful.

After the sermon he decided that everyone should be baptized. And everyone did, except for me and Cassidy. "So why aren't ye gettin' baptized there love? I thought ye were a God lovin' dear!" he says lightheartedly.

"I'm not really a God lovin' anythin'," I say flatly, "I didn't come here to get dunked in water I came here because I done some things and I need the preachers help."

He looks at me curiously, "we all done things before, and no matter what kinda things I'm sure someone still loves ya," he says, trying to fill in the role of the preacher, it seems like.

"Thanks, but a few heart warming words wont help the mess I'm in right now," I answer, looking away from him.

I decide to walk out just then, I say under my breath that I'll find the preacher another day. Cassidy tries to stop me. "Hol— Hold on now love! You may not know this but I could probably be of great help to ya!" he says with a goofy looking smile.

I sigh, "you don't know nothin' 'bout what it takes for me to get cleaned, Cassidy. I need a full reset! A god damned reset button," I shake my head, looking at the ground.