Paper Balls

Chapter 30

Sam's POV

I hear Devyn start screaming and Elton talking. I block out all of them and just slowly walk down the steps, looking at my necklace. Once I get to where it was stomped on, I fall to my knees. I pick up what's left of the X. I pick up the small pieces of black marble in my other hand. "Why does everything have to happen to me? I didn't even do anything." I whisper to myself.

That's what you think. What? Who is this? I'm just something in your little mind. What are you? Oh, me? I'm just a figment of your imagination. I only come when things are bad, like this. So, are you like a guilt thing? YES! Finally, someone finally understands. And I'm impressed, most people get it in like 3 days. What do you even do? Make me feel bad about myself? You guessed it. It was nice knowing you, but I have to go. Wait! Don't go! 

"SAM!" I look up and see everyone crowding around me. "Are you okay!" Colby asks, putting his hand out for me to grab. I don't grab it. I sit here looking at the ground. "I-i need so-some space." I say and run upstairs with the pieces in my hand. I run into my room and lock the door. I set the pieces of the necklace on my table and sit on my bed. 

What am I going to do? I don't want to face anybody. I don't to walk out of my room. I don't want to go outside. Maybe you should just stay in your room. Oh your back again. I actually wanted you to come back soon. Really? That's the first person that has said that. Usually people say that they don't want me. Well, you're the only one that should make me feel guilty. *sigh* I don't just make people feel guilty. I'm like a intrusive thought. A delusional thought. What's an intrusive thought? 

Intrusive thoughts are thoughts or images that you will find distressing and/or disturbing. Oh, okay. So you just put, thoughts that might be distressing or disturbing to me? Yeah kind of, but I don't mostly do that people. I like you, so I won't do it that much. 

"Sam?" Why can't I just be left alone with my, thing in my head? I have a name you know! "Sam can we please talk?" Colby says. I don't want to talk to anyone right now. I just want to sit here and look at the wall. I hear a sigh and footsteps walking away. 

What's your name then? My name is Ethan. Hi Ethan, I'm Sam. What do you want to do? I don't know, there's nothing to do in my room. You have your phone, or your computer? Nah, the whole house is going to be texting me, calling, facetiming, and sending me e-mails. There's nothing to do when you want to be alone, in your room, without anyone bothering you. True.

"Sam?" Oh my god! Can't people just leave me the fuck alone! Make a sign, idiot! Why didn't I think of that. Thanks Ethan. "Please, come out of your room. We have that video to shoot." Oh fuck, I forgot about the video. I slowly walk to my door and unlock it. There stands Corey. 

"Why are you telling me this? Don't you hate scary places?" I sulk. "Yeah, but it's for a Sam and Colby video. So how about you come down stairs and we can leave?" Corey says. Should I go, Ethan? Hmm, since I'm like your conscious or something, you should go. But, you are going to stay in your room for a while after. Okay thanks Ethan. "Okay." Is all I say. I walk past Corey and walk downstairs.

Just don't be like to friendly like you usually are though. I nod a little. I walk into the kitchen and everyone looks at me. Colby gets up from the table and hugs me. I just stand there and let him hug me. "Okay so me, Colby, Corey, and Sam are gong to be going to some abandoned place tonight to shoot a Sam and Colby video." Elton announces. "I don't know when we will be back, but we will be probably be back later in the like the morning or something. Let's go!" Corey says. 

"I've never seen you so pumped for an exploration video, Corey." Colby laughs. "I just have a lot of energy right now, but I'm scared us fuck bro. I'm not ready for this." Corey says. Ethan laughs. It's not even that funny! I know, but it was funny to me. I mentally roll my eyes. 

We get into Elton's car. Me and Colby in the back. Corey in the passenger and Elton in the driver's seat. Colby gives Elton the address or directions on his phone. I sit back and look out the window, having a conversation with Ethan. Until Colby starts to talk to me. "Are you doing alright, Sammy?" Colby says grabbing my shoulder. 

I look at him and give him a thumbs up and then look back out the window. Wanna play the ABC Sign game? How do you play that? First, you look at the signs, when you find a place that starts with an A, you shout it out, then your on to B. It continues until you get to Z. Sounds like fun, let's play!