Ronald and Me.

CHAPTER 13

CHAPTER 13

        Ronnie went online and looked for some Michael Jackson posters for me and Ariaunna. "Hey look at this one, you get a shirt too." "yeah i like that buy it, i really like that one tho buy that one too babe." We spent like close to 150$ wroth of Michael Jackson stuff well not all of MJ stuff i bought a blender. Later we went on twitter to just sneak and see what the other bankers were doing, and he decided to check out my twitter, i fought with him saying "nooo no no no don't look at my tweets babe don't that's embarrassing!!"

         He looked anyways and his face was priceless, omg he started laughing real loud like always and stood up and hugged me saying " AWWWWE babe am i your cinnamon apple, awwe babe i love you your my favorite banker now" Other than all the amazing bankers in the world right now, i felt sooo real and recognized because back then when Ronnie didn't notice me i was so invisible i felt like people could walk right Thru me it was horrible.

'        "I have to tell you something and don't feel bad for me over anything it was a horrible mistake and i'll try it again" but as I going to tell him Ariaunna woke up and she was crying so I went to giver her a bottle and as i was walking away i looked back at Ronnie and he looked so confused and i knew what he was thinking. "OHHH it's okay baby mommie's got you don't cry." *screaming* "please stop baby it's okay I'll feed you, it's okay baby"  I pulled down my shirt and put a blanket over her head and she began to drink. And the whole time I was feeding my daughter I was thinking of what Ronnie will do if I told hi something I never told anyone before except my parents, but after a month after i told them I father passed away from a stroke in the shower. My mother was never the same after that, sometimes I think she will just loose it and just let all her anger out on me. Ariaunna was done and my nipple was starting to hurt.

        I waked her in the living room and put her in her crib with some toys, and Ronnie was still looking dumbfounded. "OKAY back to what I was saying about my biggest secret." He looked like was an opened book ready to take everything in. "tell me tell me everything" he said in the confused voice. "okay, about 3 years ago I was molested by my best friends brother, he did it all the time in class in my bedroom he would just come in through the window cover my mouth and say "if you say a motherfucking word your parents will find I dead body in here, then he would proceed to rape and molest me over and over." He got up and walked away I put my head down feeling ashamed and hopeless I looked back but before i could *BAM* he punched the wall really hard. It scared Ariaunna and she screamed crying, I hurried to pick her up and take her to her room. He came in the room and he said " Why didn't you tell me this earlier before we had a child that has to live with this.?" I was speechless when he said that i didn't know what to say after that.