Hanbin fanfic: Struggles of liking you

Moving on was never meant to be easy

You tell me all your secrets I keep them but do you realise how much it pains me?

Every single time I see how she affects you. It hurts me too.

I have tried hard.

I have tried hard to remain objective.

To not allow my feelings affect the advice I give to you.

But sometimes it is hard.

I am angry at her.

She has badly wounded you

Why did she do that?

Why did she just leave without saying anything

She does not know how lucky she is...

The days, night, months, years... You spent waiting for her.

You gave her so much but she was too blind to see it...

Is that why I like you, because you are loyal, you value the feelings you have for her. Your persistence your perseverance...

Hanbin.

When will you see that I am here.

I will always be here like what I said.

I promise I will never ever leave your side.

I feel numb. I don't know what I should do or feel anymore

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Today you announced on television that your heart belongs to someone.

Your heart belongs to Chae Young.

I couldn't finish the broadcast interview.

I turned the tv off.

I just sat there.

Thinking... Breathing...

It is time to discard your feeling, lee Hayi.

He is taken.

He is no longer within your grasp

Give up

You can't win against a girl he has feelings for over ten years

Stop lee Hayi.

Stop

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Why do I still yearn for you?

You are with Chae Young.

I should just forget about you. Discard my growing feelings for you.

But I can't.

I see you everyday, I talk to you everyday. You make effort to talk with me.

Every day i am finding myself going deeper and deeper into the dark abyss of feelings.

Hanbin stop being so nice to me, it's making it harder for me to forget about you.

Hanbin stop smiling at me, it's giving me butterflies

Hanbin stop please.

Hanbin- ah I like you a lot.

But seeing you is killing me.

Forgive me.

I can't remain being your best friend.

It hurts too much.

I am going to take a break.

Give me time, space.

When I am ready I will return as your best friend but till then let me be.

mianhe...