Hanbin fanfic: Struggles of liking you

staying is not an option for me

hello fellow readers,
Once again I do apologise for my extremely late post. It is a short post. But I have begun writing the next two chapters so please look forward and once again mianhe
But with no further ado, here is chapter five: Staying is not an option for me.

HANBIN's POV

I knew Hayi was looking at me as I exited the door.
I felt her gaze on me.
But I didn't dare to look back.
I was afraid I would give in and come back.
This building brings too much pain.
The memories, the flashbacks vividly play in my mind, and it is tearing my heart into pieces.
This was exact place that we had the fight that ended with me cutting ties with my beloved one.
This was also the exact place where we had so many bittersweet memories.
CHae Young, I missed her.
I tried hard to move on.
I tried really hard, but I can't do it.
Everything I see in my house, in the company headquarters, in the training room, in the park nearby.
Too many memories too much grief and sadness.

I wanted an escape and that's what I did. I decided to resign.
I know it is selfish and irresponsible.
I know it is.
But for twenty so years all I have been doing is give give give.
It gets tiring.

I admit when Hayi gave me that talk, my heart was about to change.
But then when she said " don't do this yourself," my conviction to leave was stronger.

I was leaving because I couldn't stand the pain that was looming around my body anymore.
I was leaving because every time I walked into the building I felt detest.
This was the building that made me a workaholic.
This was the building that made me forget about the good times with Chae Young.
This was the building where Chae Young and I ended.
I'm doing this for myself.
I'm escaping because I, Kim Hanbin can't take it any longer.

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Hayi's PoV

I watched him leave.
It felt like every movement, every sound was at a standstill.
He didn't look back.
He walked out the doorway
My words didn't reach him.
I felt like the walls around me were crumbling down.
The scrambled pieces of Hanbin was scattered everywhere.
Even if I tried to, I failed to put them back together again.
Even if I tried to, the pieces will remain scattered.
Even if I tried to, Hanbin will always choose to leave.

I looked upon my hoobaes who had faces of sadness, disappointment and indignance.

I feel for them.
I truly feel for them.
But the only thing I can do is smile and tell them everything will be okay.
But deep down I was unsure.
Will IKON still be able to pull through with their leader gone?
Will IKON pick up the pieces together with Hanbin gone?

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