Hanbin fanfic: Struggles of liking you

nothing was more inportant than her.

Hey guys I am back hahaha
I know I know I am a serial liar I said I would update soon but that was a lie hahah

But hey I updated and yea...
I do say that this chapter was a little rushed so maybe the plot wasn't too clear... But I hope you will enjoy reading it:) remember to give it a star **

Happy reading
Aritha x

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Hayi's POV

It was one of those days where I just sit in my lounge room and think about him.

I know I know....
I know I should just stop thinking and pondering on questions about him.
But sometimes when my lonely heart has no escape and when it is raining outside I think of him.

My yearn for him is not like any other of my yearns.

I long for his presence.
That is all.
All I need is to see his face.
I don't need a hello or a smile.
I just want to see him again.
I won't mind seeing him from afar.
I...
Just want to see him.
Tears gently flowed my cheek.
Soon I couldn't contain my emptiness and my lap was slowly drenched with my tears.
Like the rain outside, it dropped and found itself in the valleys of desolation.

I laid my head on the window and wondered when will he ever appear in my life again.

It has been a year since Hanbin left the group and the last time I saw Ikon.

Even though it has been a while, I still find myself thinking about him.

Today was my birthday but I don't feel excited or whatsoever.
I just felt nothing.

I still remembered last year, Hanbin bought me a basket full of my favourite foods and a letter handwritten by him.
But this year, I will receive one less present.

As I walked out of my apartment, my phone started ringing.
I know it was stupid but I honestly wanted to hear his voice at the end of the line.
But to my disappointment it was someone else.

"Hello,"

"Hayi-ah, HAPPY BIrthday, l hope that you will have a lovely day filled with love and laughter," exclaimed a voice that belonged to my good friend, Bobby.

I chuckled. "Thanks Bobby!! Now where are my birthday wishes from the rest of your gang aye, have they forgotten about their sunbae's birthday,"

"Nah, noona of course not!!! We a- actually just finished practicing now,"

"Ahhh," I said.

"Well I'm heading to the YG headquarters now tell the boys to prepare my birthday wishes, okay?" I added.

"Wait noona, no not yet...." I heard some shuffling through the line. Bobby then continued," just hang in there for a moment we just need to pack the practice room a bit it is extremely messy and we don't want a birthday girl to see such chaos on her special day,"

I smiled, " okay okay, tell me when it's done,"
I knew something was up, and for a moment the longing for Hanbin disappeared but now I had time to think, my mind went to him once more.

I was wondering whether he remembered about my birthday.
That was all.
Does he still remember about his friend's birthday?

Hanbin's POV

He remember that today was Hayi's birthday.
He knows about it.
But he doesn't know what to do about it.
He was conflicted as to whether or not he should phone her or message her or appear at her doorstep or give her the present.

Hanbin was walking up and down his hallway hoping it may clear his cluttered thoughts.

What if she hates me? What if she doesn't care about me? Wouldn't I look awkward?
It has been a year, things should be all good right?