the sun, moon and stars🌙 R.K

trente-six | question

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c's apartment

after clearing a misunderstanding yesterday he drove me home to my apartment even though he insisted staying over at his. i haven't taken my meds for two days, it's probably why i'm feeling some slight headache in the previous mornings.

lying flatly on my bed with my eyes glued to the ceiling, i thought about the things that could've happen to him and lisa. friends? what kind of support she gave? what was his first impression? come on chaeyoung. she's a model, you're a girl from seoul who had her head cut open and was woken up from a three year coma and now you have no idea how you got to paris to meet your childhood bestfriend who's now your boyfriend. pretty much my life.

basically what i've been doing today is as plain, ordinary and boring. cleaned my apartment, cooked food, watched few movies and spent half the afternoon staring at whatever object i could see.

just by thinking too much makes my head hurt. a little while after staring, someone from the living room knocked. i jump out of the bed to see who it was. upon unlocking the door, lisa stood there in her shorts and an oversized shirt.

she stood there for a while finding the words to say. "i'm sorry for... you know, at the gallery." she smiled faintly. i don't know if i should tell her the truth about me knowing everything. well, not entirely everything.

"i assume he already told you?" she adds. i nod, "yeah. and it's fine by me really." i told her.

her faint smile slowly return to her bubbly ones as we joke about what we know about him, chatting and laughing at the door for who knows how long.

"one time in class he didn't sleep the whole night studying and when he came to school he sat on his chair holding a cup of coffee while asleep. he's sitting straight and his eyes are shut tight." i said, lisa shedding a tear from laughing too much as i try to hold back my laughter to avoid being so loud.

"ah seriously, boys." she chuckled.

i rolled my eyes "boys." and smiled in return.

lisa yawns and stretched her arms, "it's getting late, i should go to sleep now. it was fun talking to you chaeyoung. and i'm thankful you aren't those crazy girlfriends wanting to kill whoever gets on his guy's way." i laughed softly at her expectation and winked, "don't worry i'm not the crazy girlfriend. goodnight lisa."

after pecking both of my cheeks lisa waved goodbye as she walks back to her apartment door which is ten walks away from mine

i wave my hand, "goodnight chaeyoung-ah!" and went inside her room.

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returning to my bed, the sudden feeling of emptiness crawled onto me. i'm... sad? no, i feel empty. i don't know why but i just did, and i feel so alone and sad.

beginning a staring contest at the ceiling, my thoughts drifted everywhere. from my childhood, the accident, fights with jeongguk, every bad part of it. but i think it's not because of them.

i want to cry, but it's not sadness. i want to cry but there's no tears coming out. i feel isolated and i have to endure this for a while.

taking deep breaths, i texted dr. seokjin though it's a friday today and it's morning in korea. not receiving a reply after waiting for minutes i tried calling jeongguk, and even him isn't answering. people really are busy when you need them. though i don't blame them. i blame myself for being so weak minded.

an hour of lying on the bed constantly checking my phone, jeongguk calls.

"mon amor? i'm sorry, i was at the gallery. what's wrong?"

"nothing really. you're going home now?"

a notification appeared on my screen with dr. seokjin's text, "doctor replied." accidentally saying it out loud jeongguk flooded me with questions regarding how and what i'm feeling right now.

"i'm fine koo. i just wanted to ask doctor if i should take my other medicines."

"no, you know all the pills you're taking and i have a copy about it. so there's something else bothering you. wait for me i'll be there in a couple of minutes."

"you really don't have to." i whined.

insisting him i'm feeling perfectly fine even though for a moment i don't, i do want him beside me. i want him to ease my nerves so i wouldn't have to feel like this, anxious and all alone with my thoughts drowning me.

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an hour after he came all we did is lie down on bed chatting, jeongguk telling me stories until i finally convinced him i'm doing fine. lying on his lap with his fingers tangling my hair in gentle ways that's very calming.

"don't you think we fell in love so quickly?" i ask, out of the blue.

"what do you mean?" he asks.

"this—the whole dating stuff."

a smile formed his lips and chuckled, "chaeyoung i fell in love with you a little longer than you think." he said in a serious tone yet managed to look playful. my heart instantly melted, smilimg sheepishly at him.

i sat up pushing him gently to lie down and drop my body on top of his, burying my face on the crook of his neck as he wraps his arm around, embracing me.

looking up i gaze at his dilated pupils and tucked a strand of hair behind my ear. he stared at me for how it seems like forever until i lean closer and let our lips meet, our breath hitching in satisfaction.

every little thing we do always feel so new as if every touch is different.

the moment i pulled away he didn't seem to have the same idea. instead, he lifted me up positioning myself to sit on his lap. my fingers seem to find itself brushing his hair causing him to be even more engaged, the lust in his eyes looking at me for permission.

i place my hand on his cheek to caress, hoping my lips on his would be enough to answer his questions.

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a/n

i have written this chapter three times, first is continuation of the previous, second is also a whole lot different, and third is this hshshs.

and about with the liskook one, i promise there won't be so much interactions and it's just a part of the subplot.

but i did warn you about dramas. and i ain't kidding about that drama 🤭

* credits to the right picture above from my fav editor @/naojus on instagram! ❤