Married To The Game

Chapter XLIX (49)

TWON

"Antwon, you have a visitor." Officer Truddy fine ass said while walking up to my cell which was kind of odd cause I don't really have visitors...

"Wrong Antwon." I told her.

"Nope, Mr. Mccants you're definitely the right Antwon." She said while handcuffing me an opening my cell. She walked me into the one on one visitation room an removed my handcuffs.

"Behave now." She winked her eye an left the room. I sat down an waited for almost 5 minutes before I heard the door open. I turned my head and couldn't believe my eyes. It was Janae. She walked over an gave me a long hug.

"It's been soo long." She said finally letting me go an taking a seat across from me.

"It really has, watchu doing here?"

"I needed answers." She said.

"What? What kind of answers?"

"Twon your son misses you, he cried himself to sleep in my arms last night. I never realized how much this affected him until now... I think I moved on too fast without knowing where my heart was. You pushed me away without asking me how I felt and now your kids are suffering from it."

"I didn't push you away, I made you move on. Janae you know I love you and I always will and because I do I would never make you put your life on hold. Life is way too short... You don't have to be with me in order to hold me down. Hold me down by showing me how strong you are, hold me down by raising our kids but most of all hold me down by being happy an by living your life." I held onto her hands.

She put her head down. "It's not that easy to let go of something you've held on to for so long... I mean like yeah I'm in a committed relationship and I do love him but the love I have for him and the love I have for you are different." She admitted.

"Janae look at me... I love you okay. It's not a day goes by that I don't miss being with you... But you have a family you have to concentrate on. Please don't go home an stress over this."

"Twon you always say this shit but--"

"But nothing." I stood up an pulled her around the table into my arms. She laid her head in my chest an cried. I held onto her an thought...

I know I can be kind of demanding but I was taught not to be a selfish person. I love Janae with all of my heart, her and the kids are all I got. My mom was hospitalized do to stress a few years back because of this and now look at her, 6 feet under. It'll hurt me to see her stress over this.

"Janae listen , I have to go back to my cell but I'll call you sometime tonight so I can talk to the kids... I love you."

"I love you too Twon." I wiped her tears and kissed her forehead...

"Ayee yooo I'm ready!" I hugged her one last time then held my hands together to be handcuffed. Janae wiped her face an left the room.

JANAE

I must admit, I'm a little hurt by what he said. Mostly because he just don't understand where I'm coming from, but who am I to be hurt... Twon has always been the demanding type. He's the only one that can make me break down an cry like that.

TWON

"You good bruh?" My lil homie Baby asked.

"Nah my baby mama just came to see me." I told him.

"So you should be happy right?"

"Nah she trying to get back to me... She keep telling me the love she has for me is different from what she have for that other nigga."

"Damn what's your girl's name anyway?"

"Janae." I told him.

"Janae? She kinda short, hella tatted--"

"Yeah that's her, you know her?"

"That's my dawg old lady... Damn I ain't know you was talking to her, Janae real cool an always snappin on somebody."

"Shit this a small ass world."

BABY

Damn I had no idea, he was talking about Janae the whole time. I should've been asked. She gotta lot on her plate, plus Vaughn away. That ain't my business though so Ima just keep my mouth closed.

Anyways we downstairs eating, well they eating... This jail house shit don't sit well on my stomach so every chance I get I just eat when we have snacks... Plus Officer Truddy fine ass be sneaking me shit.

"Aye Baby have ma called you since you've been in here?" Rich asked referring to our grandma.

"Yeah when my ol lady call me she put her on three-way."

"Lemme know next time she calls, I wanna talk to her." He said just before the buzzer rung, letting us know it was time to go back to our cells...

Later that night

"Mareese Sills." I heard officer Truddy say causing me to jump up out of my sleep. She handcuffed me then opened my cell. We walked all the way to her ducked off office where she had my food at.

"So Mareese tell me, how does it feel to be behind bars without any sexual intercourse." She asked me.

"Like shit." I replied with no hesitation. While finishing up the spaghetti she brought for me. I ate the last fork full and put the empty container on her desk.

"You know I've been watching you right?" She said.

"Shit and who wasn't been watching you?" I said while examining her body. She walked over to the door an locked it while cutting off the lights. I couldn't see shit and it a while before I felt her come closer to me. She grabbed my hands an placed them her on her bare ass. She was naked which caused my home boy down there rise. She reached her hands in my pants an pulled him out. She dropped down to her knee's and did what she was good at. Officer Truddy gave head like a pro man. 20 minutes later. She grabbed my hands an guided me to her desk. She pushed everything off an laid down on it with her legs spread towards me. That's when I realized how much I really love Kenya.

"We can't do this ma... I gotta girl at home that I'm committed to." I told her.

"So you're one of the loyal ones huh?" She closed her legs an sat up.

"If that's watchu wanna call it."

"I respect that." She climbed off the desk and put back on her clothes. After that she walked me back to my cell.

I feel kind of bad, but shit when I get out of here she not the one I'll be going home to so it is what it is.