I look up at Chase confused. "What's wrong?" I ask frowning up at him. He hesitates. Then he grabs my wrist, and leads me to the curb to sit down. He doesn't offer me his jacket like he usually would. I sit down and he remains standing, still not offering his jacket like he usually does. What's up with him today? I wonder.
"Rose," he finally says. "I'm breaking up with you."
My heart stops. Not literally but it feels like it.
"Wh-what?" I stutter. "I'm breaking up with you Rose. It's over. You and I we're done. No more."
My heart shatters. It's like my world is falling around me while I sit watching it fall, helplessly, ip unable to stop it from happening. No. Not again. My world has fallen again.
"How could you." I quietly mumble. "What?"
"How. Could. YOU!?" I sob. "I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME!!"
"You- you LIAR!!" I shout. "I'm not gonna say I'm sorry. Cause I'm not. We weren't right together. You where too depressed and suicidal." Ohhhh he did NOT just say that. To me.
"Woah woah woah. Slow your roll here. Suicidal? Depressed. Maybe. But suicidal!? NO HONEY YOU. YOU ARE THE SUICIDAL ONE!" I shout. He looks at the ground ashamed. "And don't act like you're ashamed! You knew exactly what you where gonna do when you said it!" He didn't answer. He's really starting to tick me off.
"Don't just sit there like an idiot. Talk. Answer me! Explain why you tried to say that I had all of your problems!?" I shout. Man I'm shouting a lot today. He takes a deep breathe like he's gonna start talking. But he doesn't. I let out a frustrated growl. "You. Are. Pathetic!" I practically spat the last word out. He flinches. "You're really making it hard not to Apologize."
"Then do it. Apologize. I won't accept it but I bet it sure would feel better for you."
"No. I've done nothing wrong."
I sat there for a while watching him while anger boiled up in my chest. I studied him. I saw his body language. How he made sure not touch me in a romantic way or sexually. He didn't look at me the way he used to, with lust and love like I was his world. Then, the answer hit me like a truck.
"You where cheating on me. Weren't you. You don't love me anymore. I told you everything. And you told me all your problems. I helped you! And this is how you thank me? Oh.. Wait. That's right you never did thank me. Well ya know what? I hope she treats you like a piece of crap. And I hope you know that I was the one who cared if you died. So go away Chase." I glanced up but he was already gone. He must have left during my rant. I just sat there and sobbed. I saw a girl walk by but stop and look. Then she continued on with her day. By the time I decided to go inside I was soaked. As I walked to class a boy asked me if I wanted to hang out and get some pizza after school. His name is Jay. I said yes, but just so Chase could see I can move on. When I walk by Chase's locker I saw he was with a girl already. Figures. But I didn't hear flirting. I heard her chewing him out. I hid in a group of kids nearby so I could her what she was saying.
"She moved on and I feel sorry for you 'cause she overlooked your flaws, your temper, your selfishness, your inability to love anyone other than yourself. She could have anyone in the world but she still chose you every time. All you are now is a crease in her past, a scar on her chest, a memory that fades faster than the photograph of you under her mattress. Maybe now she will find someone who loves her instead of someone who sucks the life out of her never satisfied, even with her beating heart in his greedy hands."
He looked utterly shocked. I don't have any friends here so I didn't know who she was until she turned around. It was Jessica, my brother's girlfriend before he died. No wonder she knew all of this. She was Jay's sister. She must have played this out so Chase would feel guilty and come back. But he won't.
He will never come back.
He never does.
Never.
