FOREVER IS A MYTH

What is love?

LEXI'S POV

I knew I never had a chance with him he was way out of my league. He was a hunk and I was nothing more than an average. But still his 'whole hearted smile' gave me courage to think otherwise. Maybe I still had a chance, maybe someday I could tell him about my feelings- well that was way too courageous of an act for me- and this tiny part of me wished that he would accept me for who I am and would love me forever...

But boy this ain't a fairy tale and forever is a myth...yeah I know I am such a hypocrite, on one hand I say I want to fall in love, on the other I do not believe in it!.. I have never felt this feeling called 'love' and I believe it is just an acceptance or sharing of common ideas,thoughts and interests!

Love is just a feeling which is based on connecting with someone on the basis of shared interests, isn't it?

Whatever it may be... but the way it's being described in the novels makes me want to fall for someone..

Now enough ranting about what 'I' think about love because....
"Oh shit"
Why I always have to be so clumsy(I mentally slapped myslef)? I  stumbled upon someone and was about to apologize but when I looked up, I met his gaze. Yes 'his' gaze the so called stud- Mr. Martin Paul's  gaze. Why the hell I always have to be in the wrong place in the wrong time!

I was once again lost in my thoughts when a deep baritone startled me and brought me back to reality.
"I know you have poor tastes but couldn't you find any better place to throw yourself at me", he spat on my face.

I checked my surroundings and realised I was in the boy's washroom...God, seriously what's wrong with me!.."What can I say? Jerks like you have nothing better to do than be full of themselves", I rolled my eyes and started to move out but he blocked my way.

I crossed my hands and raised my eyebrows with a 'I am so done with you' look.
He came closer and held me by my elbow. My breath hitched at the contact..what was he doing?..and before I knew it I was being turned around and greeted by the horrific sight of a dozen of guys staring at me frantically like I was as an alien.

Martin's hot breath hit my ear and I shuddered (curse the hormones). He leaned in closer and whispered in my ear, "Now isn't it quite a sight, Ms. Uptight Alexa losing her self control".

I took a deep breath, calmed my nerves, turned around and did something unusual. I passionately kissed Martin. He was taken aback at first but soon he complied and kissesd me back. He licked my bottom lip in an attempt to invade my mouth and when he did he moaned, "ahh ahhh aha, fucking bitch" not in pleasure but in pain. Yes, I hit him in the balls and with a smirk said,"Now wasn't I throwing myself at you." I gave him a wink and moved out.

I could see the half grins and half amused faces of people. No wonder tomorrow I was going to be the breaking news of THE KNOWLINGTON COLLEGE. The bell rang and I realised the recess was over.

It was 4th period after the break and I had no plan of rushing in the class late because it was OOP class. Yeah, you guessed it right I was a tech freak!
And Computer Science & Engineering was the best thing that had ever happened to me. I loved solving analytical and logical problems so it was kinda' relief for me from my already messy life!

I am a girl of 20yrs, studying at one of the best colleges of her state. My elder brother is a successful bussinessman and my dad is an engineer himself.

My mom....well she 'was' special and still is precious to me. I lost her when I was about 5yrs so I don't really know much about her. But my dad, the way his eyes sparkle every time my mom's name escapes his lips reflects his affection for her and shows that indeed she was a special lady.