It's fine, I forgive you... // Bakudeku angst // (DISCONTINUED)

8. Spaced out

Kacchan's POV:

The nerd sat in front of me with his food, he didnt put much in his plate tho, neither I did. Guess he wasn't very hungry either. I took a bite of my meal and looked up at him, who was looking at me spaced out. "Really? Again? What the hell is this nerd's so busy thinking about lately?!" I watched him too, wanted to see how long could he stay in his own world without me getting him out of it, as always. I took some more bites every once in a while, making sure not to make noise with the fork that could snap him out of his thoughts.

The wait got me bored pretty soon, I'm not a person with lots of patience. I raised my hand from the table and snapped my fingers right in front of his face, making him flinch instantly. He's back to reality once again.

"Oi nerd, the fuck you spacing out so much for? Eat your meal already dammit" I said, putting my hand back over the table and taking another bite.

"I-- yeah, sorry Kacchan!" he nervously laughed "I was just... thinking. Sorry-" then he looked away, head down. He was much more nervous than the usual deku would he, around me at least. Maybe he was hiding something? Who knows what kind of internal muttering is he busy with now, could be anything.

"Whatever" I said as I rolled my eyes, resting my head on my palm as I looked in another direction.

Broccoli's POV:

The moment I sat there, alone with Kacchan, I froze. My mind started rambling about how bad this idea was, I wasn't supposed to eat this much! And if I did, I had no noise to cover up my gags' when I threw up in the bathroom. Kacchan would definitely hear it. I was trapped there, couldn't move nor speak. Desperately seeking for an scape plan that will never come to mind. I was panicking so much.

Dont know if for good or bad, I didn't think for much longer. Kacchan literally snapped me out of my thoughts, so I had no choice other to face the consequences of my actions. I answered him, trying to sound confiden but failed. My voice shaked and my words were too poor. Altho, it doesnt seem like he noticed much. He looked away as I stared at my meal. Making the best of efforts to hide my disgust and fear from Kacchan. "There's too much, he will think you are a fatass the moment you eat it all, just fucking dont. He doesnt care about you anyways. No one doe-" I interrupted my own voices by taking a bite of the meal. "Fatass." They were right, just by tasting that first bite I already felt sick. My stomach flipped and I felt the need to throw up immediately. But I couldnt! Kacchan was in front of me! That wasnt an option, I must hold it back and eat. Most of the plate at least... "C'mon, we did this everyday back at home, we can do it once more, right?" I internally tried to encourage me to keep eating. It didnt work much, but it helped a bit.

I tried to keep a smile on my face, to show I liked the food, while avoiding showing pure disgust at every little bite. It was so hard. It reminded me of those months of training with All might.

I was almost done, my hand was shaking but... It wasnt out of disgust tho... I was hiding rage and distress too, my internal argument went from mean whispers to fucking screaming all the reasons I stopped eating like I did before. I still ate something so I didnt faint while training with All might or during class, but it was so triggering. And now eating a whole meal? God, I felt so frustrated I would punch my stomach until I threw up all I've eating right in front of Kacchan, I didnt care if he saw!!!

But that wasn't possible, no... I couldn't do this to him.

I finished my meal. The plate wasnt clean, of coursec. I took advantage and left someting spread there... All together maybe could fill a whole spoon, not bad.

I pushed away my plate and looked at Kacchan. I hadn't noticed him in the whole while I was eating, I kept my eyes staring at the food all along.

He was... Looking at me with confusion in his face. His head still resting on his palm. His plate still had half of the food tho... Did I distract him? Oh god, was I that obvious?!?!? No no no no no! This couldn't be...

"Ka-Kacchan?..." I got his full attention now, it sent shivers down my spine.

Katsuki's POV:

I snapped at deku and he started eating his meal. I was already half-way through mine, but wasnt hungry anymore. I would eat some energy bar later at training and done.

I watched the nerd eating from the corner of my eye, and it seemed like an old man without teeth was eating some gross thing and was sittin in front of me. "What the fuck?" I was so confused, "why is he acting so... Strange? Is it me? Maybe he's too uncomfortable, no wonder... I'm a monster, who isn't scared of them?" I kept my eyes on him, curiosity taking over me. Maybe he did some more weird shit as long as I keep unnoticed.

He didn't look away from his meal, not even for a second. I started to think I would never get noticed by him.

The nerd was shaking and his face didnt show the same emotions his eyes did, what was he up to now?

When deku was done eating, he shakily looked up, finally noticing me.
"Ka-Kacchan?..." He shuttered, classic old nervous deku.

"Why is he surprised to see me looking at him?"

"What do you want, deku?" I replied, still not looking away. There was no use in trying to avoid eye contact, he already caught me after all.

"No-nothing! I was just- uhm..." He paused for a second, thinking for the right words to answer. "...Never mind it" He finished talking giving me a warm smile.

"Tch, whatever" I added as I rolled my eyes. There was nothing else I could say, so I got up from my seat, took both plates and put them in the sink after throwing away what remained in the plate into the bin. Deku cleaned the table while I washed the plates.

After that, I sat on the couch and took my phone out. For my surprise, shitty nerd did the same thing, sitting next to me cross-legged. He was looking around like a curious child in a new environment, probably thinking of something to do.

I was checking the news, just to see if anything cought my attention. I felt Deku move a little closer and look at my phone screen from the corner of his eye. "What are you doing, kacchan?" He asked while still looking at my phone, his sweet tone full of curiosity. "Just checking for an interesting villain encounter or someshit" I replied, letting him see my screen in a more comfortable way. I mean, I would be annoyed when being watched as I'm on the phone but... C'mon, its just the news, nothing important to see there. He muttered a 'thank you' when I showed him the screen.

"Nothing out of the usual, how boring" I groaned, leaning my head back for a moment. "Wait... Kacchan look! That new movie is finally out! Remember that show we both loved watching as kids? They made a movie out of it!" He noticed the ad that announced it's release and started rambling about it in excitement. I looked back at the screen and clicked on the add for more info. "...it says it was out in the cinemas..." I scrolled down the article, looking for the release date in Japan. "Yesterday" I looked at deku from the corner of my eye and said that, wanting to see his reaction. As I expected, the nerd's face lit up instantly, his eyes shining like a bunch of burning stars and his soft smile turning into a wide gasp. He turned to me, struggling to hold back his enthusiasm. "Can we please go see it??? Please! Im sure Mina and Kaminari would to come too! Its going to be so fun!!!" He started fangirling and talking way too fast. His high pitched voice was irritating me, so I shut him up covering his mouth with my hand. "SHUT IT, NERD! Let me talk, for god's sake!" I uncovered his mouth "You wanna go see it? Good, call those two idiots and leave me alone" My tone wasn't as aggressive as usual, but still managed to intimidate him. "B-but... I want to go with Kacchan too..." he looked down, all the brightness in his face disappearing and turning into a rather sad look. Damn you, nerd. "UGH! Fine, I'll go! But you bastards better shut up about it" his smile was restored and a light blush appeared on his cheeks as he chuckled softly. Fuck you adorable piece of rotten broccoli!

"Thank you, Kacchan"

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Well, this took long to come out!! Im sorry, its just... I'm very busy and inspiration is a bitch! QwQ but worry not dear reader! I start school tomorrow but that wont stop me from writing this! I have lots of ideas for this story and I'll keep on updating! Just a bit slower qwq""

With this said, hope ya'll have a nice day!!! <3

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Updated: 8 of September, 2019