spring day. | choen

day five.

hi im back and i did not check for any spelling mistakes pls have mercy

Time was passing by faster than ever. Chase only had five days left with the love of his life, and he knew there was nothing he could do to change his faith.

Chase looked deeper into the situation they were in. As he was admiring his boyfriend from the far, leaning against the kitchen counter while watching Noen and their friends Anthony, Jaden and Payton vigorously and aggressively playing their dumb shooter games.

He loved to see his boy happy. That wonderful smile that just appeared on his usually neutral and bland, beautiful face. The way his eyes lit up, in a way that could make anyone, but especially Chase melt. How every time the blonde got excited, he would grip the ends of his sleeves and form tiny fists with his small hands. Yes, Chase fucking loved happiness on Noen. He adored it.

And he loved being the cause of it.

One thing he didn't like was being the cause of the boy's sadness, disappointment, stress, anxiety. Being the reason for Noen's heartbreak, his tears and his bad moods.

Soon though he would be. Would it even matter though?

Chase didn't believe in heaven and hell, nor did he believe in rebirth. So as soon as his heart would give up, all his guilt and all his worries would be gone.

What a selfish mind the boy was putting himself in.

"Babyy, come join us please!" Noen called with a baby-ish voice, pouting at his lover. He completely got the latter out of his thoughts. Chase twitched. "Mmm babbyyyy, yeaahh mmm come join usss!~" Payton mocked, which made both Jaden and Anthony chuckle. Noen pushed the young boy gently before turning his attention back on Chase. "Please baby? Please please?" The raven haired had to sigh. "Okay."

Eventually, they all continued their game, with Chase trying his best to figure out how to even play it. "Hey look, you shoot like this" Noen moved over to his boyfriend, placing his hand on Chase's as he moved his finger to a button on the controller. "See!" He pointed at the screen. "You're doing so well" Chase had to chuckle. His boyfriend was really the most precious.

Chase couldn't help but notice the glares Jaden was giving him. And Noen seemed to notice too. He let out a deep sigh, which caught everyone's attention. Shortly after he was already placed on Chase's lap, which just deepened Jaden's glare and made it sting even more. Anthony just watched the whole situation awkwardly, like, the fuck was actually going on? Neither Anthony nor Chase knew, Noen just seemed to be so uncomfortable while Jaden was visibly caring a shit ton of anger inside of him, and the situation was getting worse with the second. None of them knew who to stare at, which just made it a whole mess. Everyones eyes have probably met twice by now, and before Chase got to ask what the hell was even happening,

"Bruh i won" Payton chuckled, A sound coming from the game they were supposed to be playing. "Y'all suck at this" He added.

Chase had to cough. "Congrats." Somewhat, he was happy the youngest of them five gave this awkward situation an end. Then again, he'd like to know what the fuck that was.

They eventually continued playing the shooter game, Payton winning almost every game, since the other four were still way too distracted by the previous situation .

A few hours passed and the five of them were standing at the front door, saying goodbye to each other. And again, Chase noticed that disgusting glare of Jaden before he turned around to leave.

The boy closed the door, and Noen knew what was about to happen.

"Explain." He stayed quiet.

"Noen." He looked up at the boy.

Chase took a step closer, arms wrapping around Noen's small waist. "Baby. Come on."

He shook his head. "I can't. I don't know, i just.."

The elder was about to cry.

Noen hated liars. He hated lies. He hated being lied to, Dishonest people, people who kept secrets. Yet that was exactly what he was doing at this exact moment. Lying. Being Dishonest. Keeping secrets.

Chase nodded, placing a kiss on Noen's head. "Maybe he just had a bad day, let's not worry about it too much." He mumbled, hands gripping Chase's sides as he was nuzzling into his black sweater tightly. "Right. I'm sorry."

"Y'know, you could worry about my needs instead. Cause i'm very love, and attention, and affection deprived!" The blonde exclaimed, his head instantly lifting up and his lips forming into a needy pout. "Is that so?" Chase asked, passing his baby a grin. "So my baby's needy?" Noen nodded hesitantly. "Needy for s looot of love from his pretty pretty boyfriend!!" Chase scrunched his nose. "Say no more."

He picked his boyfriend up, which gained him a giggle from the shorter. Carrying him to their shared bedroom, he tried his best not to show how hard and exhausting it was for him to pick the boy up. And luckily, Noen didn't notice.

They were now peacefully lying next to each other, Noen's head on Chase's chest, listening to his unsteady heartbeat, which he still somewhat found calming. "Bebe?" , "Hm?" Chase mumbled sleepily. "Would you ever consider marrying me? I mean, not right now but, maybe one day, y'know.."

Chase's sleepiness faded away within a second. "What?"

"I mean, it's just a question i- I'm sorry if it was too soon i just, i'm-" Noen stuttered, Chase cutting him off halfway. "No, no baby. I would, of course i would"

Of course Chase would, if only he could.

Or perhaps, he could.

"One day..?" Chase repeat after Noen. "Yeah, one day.. When we're, y'know.. Older, and-" "Why not now? I mean, like.. Right now.."

Noen didn't expect that answer, it was so unexpected. "What?" He frowned, sitting up. "I.. I know it sounds crazy, and completely fucking dumb, but.. Noen, Noen Eubanks, my beautiful baby. I love you, so unbelievably much. And i know, genuinely, that you're the one." He gulped, continuing his speech.

"Time is limited, and i don't want to waste a day without you. I want to experience it all with you, and i don't want it to be too late. -

Noen Eubanks, my blessed angel, the love and light of my life, will you marry me?"

Death silence, as the lovers were just silently staring at each other.

"Chase.." The blonde mumbled. He knew his boyfriend was right, but it didn't feel right, it felt too soon, unexpected and extremely rushed. "I.."

"Please." Chase begged.

But Noen shook his head. "Let me think about it, okay?" The elder reached out for his boyfriends hand. "I love you."

There were five days left, and he knew Noen wouldn't be able to find an answer anytime soon. It would be too late.

Chase congratulated himself. He just caused another disaster.

this is literally so messy and im so sorry, i'm literally so sick at the moment and my brain could not come up with anything decent fhekdk im sorry i hope u guys still like it <3