I Had You

Teaser

I'm not innocent yet guilty either. I just love the one I love.

In a relationship,I'm a coward.

"Lewis" he called,while sleeping.

I dare not to call you back.

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I called him,and he picked up after the second try.

I was sitting on the bus.

"It's snowing today.Winter has arrived" I said.

He rustled,and I knew where he was.

I fear for the desperate tears.

In the first snowy night,next year....
*sigh*

Fear of empty house.
Fear for the promises you made.
And fear for getting hurt again.

"I'll never do anything that betrays you or disappoints you."
"Be my entire lifetime,Louis!" was what he said.

Daniel Anderson,from the first time I saw you.

I knew there was nothing I want more and I would do anything for you.

Back then,you said,
"I heard that you're not a fan of soft drinks,so I hope you like some mineral water and also like me!".

What about you?
You said that you love me,but your love bought me sadness and pain as well.

I thought you would be my today and tomorrows.

I imagined that someday,you would turn around again and look at me with all your love.

There's no wonder that I would get illness like this.

If love between you and me cannot last forever.

Then,I'm sorry,I'll have to go.

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"Don't be that cruel. I never wanted anything expensive from you. But if you are going to hurt me more,then,at that moment,you will not be able to find me anymore." was what I said to him,while he was sleeping,his arms under my head.

'You reek of alcohol,Daniel' I whispered.
I couldn't help but smile,but deep inside I'm hurting.