"Anyways,accept the chemotherapy as soon as possible.
It gets increasingly dangerous,the longer you delay it." said Dr.Aiden.
"I...am scared of bearing the hardships. I'm living by myself and I don't think that I can make through it."
"Please prescribe more medicine for me. I will consider it for a little longer." I continued.
Dr.Aiden sighed.
"Doc,I'm okay. My nose bleeds are happening less frequently but my fever is getting more intense."
Dr.Aiden didn't say anything.
He's scribbling something on the paper.
So I continued with,
"A couple of days ago,I had a dream. I was a stove. My heart,liver spleen and lungs are on fire. I thought I wouldn't be able to pull it through."
"You are my patient. If you'll go through with the treatments, I'll be there for you." said Dr.Aiden as he handed me the prescription.
Then he continued with,
"No big deal. We should have hope in our life , shouldn't we?"
"I will think through it." I faked a smile.
"You can go collect your medicine."
"Thank you,Doc."
"Wait,take this with you."
He handed me a small planted flower pot.
"Don't let your mind wander all by yourself.
Pick up a new hobby. For example, having a pet or raising flowers."
"Thank you Doc,but I'm not good at raising flowers. Especially the orchids."
"It is not that difficult. I hope you consider my advice and come for your treatment soon."
"Alright then."
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"I'm home"
......
Ah I forgot that there's no one living here.
Hmm,please take care of my mind,orchid.
I felt a sudden pain in my chest.
"It's beginning to hurt again"
"My medicines"
I rushed to the study room of Dan's.
And grabbed my medication on the book shelf.
Of course,he didn't notice that.
Hah,how stupid he is.
I swallowed it,instead of having it with water.
Its bitter and was stuck in my neck.
You haven't been home for two months,Dan.
I fell asleep on the couch,and was woken up by the click sound of the door.
It was Dan.
I should be happy,but I felt nothing.
I was motionless.
He opened the light of the living room,and was startled by my appearance.
"WHAT ARE YOU THINKING SITTING THERE IN THE DARK LIKE SOME GHOST! YOU SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME."
"I fell asleep. Just woke up. Didn't get a chance to turn on the light. Aren't you busy?"
"No matter how busy I am,I should also seperate some time for work and home. You didn't even call me,its been days."
I sat in silence.
"Did you become skinnier? It's not like you're born yesterday,can you at least take care of yourself? Don't you feel disguised when you look in the mirror?!"
Disguised? So you're disgusted of my body? I shouldn't have expect more from you.
I stood up and left for my bedroom.
Daniel came in after a late night bath.
He sat on the bed,and the bed rustled.
After a time,he hugged me.
"How much weight did you lose?"
"I didn't have much appetite,so I ate less."
His hand came under my shirt,slowly moving up.
He gave me a warm kiss,at the back of neck.
"I'm tired,I don't feel like doing it."
"I've been gone for so long,don't you miss me at all"
"I caught a cold. I don't feel well. Let's turn in early."
He hesitated. But then he turn and close the lamp.
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