I'm sorry - don't be ( kiribaku )

panic atack ch 7

Kirishimas POV

Bakugo you and I were marking breakfast want her herd a huge crash
" GOD DAMMIT KIRISHIMA WHY, WHY HIM AND NOT ME" and then she threw something across the room and the hole situation sent me into a panic at ax and I started hyperventilating and crying I ran away as fast as I could she reminded me of my mom so mutch at that moment

-start of flash back-

It was my 5th birthday and I was so excited, my dad said that he had to go get the cake but then my mother got home my parents have never had the best relationship but when my mom forgot my birthday my dad lost it and hit her on the head with his bag
He had always had anger issues but never this bad, when they got a divorce my mom got Full custody because my dad had asulted her but my dad would have been sutch a better parent the when my mom got home from court i was in my room happily drawing when you are my mom crash In to my room completely drunk and she had The smell of alcohol covering her
"GOD DAMMIT EJIRO WHY MY DID ME LEVE ME * a couple of sobs*"
" mommy? Are you ok?"
" you, it's your fault you are the reason he left me this is your fault"
Thank she through the empty beer bottle at me and I screamed as I ducked my head and I was so lucky that I activated my quirk but I would regret that
" ohhahahhha you think your so strong with your useless little well your RONG"
Bang she used her quirk on me witch I thought she would never do my mom had the quirk called "sharpen and blunt" basically she could give a random object or her arms and legs the power on an extremely sharp knife or 20 baseball bats being swung by a professional player and it is pain full

-end of flash back-

Still kirishimas POV
I was it the very back of the school because no one was thar and I was still crying this was one of the few times that I couldn't calm myself down this has only happed once befor and and it tuck my beast grind to calm me down but sadly she died so I'm alone all alone my myself with no one who loves me

Bakugos POV

" WHAT THE HELL PINKY"
" I-I i didn't know that would happen" 
" WELL WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU THINK WOULD HAPPEN DIPSHIT, HE WOULD JUST FALL FOR YOU?"
" I'm I'm I'm sorry * sob* I  just relly like him"
" I don't fucking care right now get Mr. Aizawa and help me find him"
I say as I run out of the building

( I just realized I wrote all of that in bold and I don't feel like redoing it so yeah )

Kirishimas POV
I had climbed to the top on the U.A building and I wrote a small note on a napkin I hand in my had before I was marking breakfast with bakugo I felt so alone so empty so hated

Do it jump

No I have friends I should they love me, right?

Of core     They don't why would anyone "love" you, your worthless

Your right I'm better off gone

Their you go you are right for once in your life now just DIE!!

And then I jumped I was falling and I deserved it I deserved to die I started crying as I fell but I knew I deserved this