Reality i faced. That i embraced.
Tears rolled down into the empty space.
Hidden under the smile that held nothing but shame.
I wanted to move but part of me stayed.
People looked at me but they never saw.
Who i was as a person so raw.
Running away from everything, trying to avoid the pain.
I heard my name.
Someone was calling me, it was time to hold the game.
Bold as a lightening, i went back straight. Felt what came.
I took a nap in his lap, forgot everything else.
Because pain was meant to be felt.
The moment I woke up, it was dark and dense.
I cried but i stayed, held my flag in the waves.
Hoping that waves would drown me to death, but pain had other plans, i bet.
I stared into me. Thinking what was my name.
I want someone to hold me and hug me again.
Cure me with love, i might even break.
I had no one but an empty heart and a shameful brain, carrying memories of the past.
Flashing them in my head, mocking me again.
I opened my eyes and felt nothing.
Until all of a sudden my head was shoveled into this materialistic frame again.
I begged for help but no one came.
They said it's do or die.
I wanted to die.
But i did everything all over again.
