#AoP12
Dali dali akong bumaba ng sasakyan at paharurot na sumakay ng elevator. Call me childish wala akong pake. I don't know what to answer him
Narinig ko ang pagtawag niya pero di na ako lumingon. Pagdating ko sa unit ko agar akong pumunta ng kwarto.
Tama ba ang ginawa ko? Tama ba ang reaksyon ko? I feel so guilty na hindi ko man lang nasabi sa kanya ang nararamdaman ko. Ugghh!!
Siguro nasa baba pa siya, I should see him and explain... No not explain, maybe I should tell him the truth.
I was about to open the door when I heard my phone ring... And it's no other than Juan Gerardo Gomez De Liaño. I took a deep breath before answering
"Thank god... I've been trying to call you, bakit di mo sinasagot?"
"...Uhm- I'm sorry for what I've said kanina" rinig na rinig ko ang bigat ng kanyang paghinga
"I like you, and I don't want to loose you. Since the day that I saw you I know already that there's something" he continued.
There was a silence
Gusto kong sabihin sa kanya ang lahat but I'm scared... takot ako na baka pagkatapos ng lahat maiwan na naman ako. I'm not good at handling relationships. Lagi akong naiiwan, lagi akong nasasaktan. Takot na kong masaktan pa ulit. Lahat ng mga naka relasyon ko pare-pareho lang ang mga pangako pero ganun parin.
"I'm afraid" I told him
"Afraid of what?" He ask
"I'm scared to feel attached to someone. I'm afraid that baka maiwan na naman ako... Because no matter how good it's going or how faithful you are in your partner, in the end lolokohin at lolokohin ka parin nila" I told him at ramdam ko ang pagtulo ng mga luha ko. After saying those words nabalik lahat ng sakit ng nararamdaman ko.
Kung paano ako niloko ng ex boyfriend ko at ng tinuring kong best friend noon. At Ayokong maulit ang sakit na gun.
"Do you think magagawa ko yun?" He ask. At hindi ako sumagot
"... Okay look, I don't like waiting, but if that means having you then, I will spend as much time as I have you just to have you"
Parang sasabog ang puso ko, I don't know what to feel anymore. Gustuhin ko mang sumugal at paniwalaan siya, pero natatakot ako...
Just like what Jordan Mejica Bartlett did. Those sweet words of him it is exactly the same words that Juan told me. Ganun din ang sinabi niya... But then, niloko niya parin ako.
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This is just a work of fiction only! Hokkeey?
Anyways thanks for reading
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8/30/19
BINABASA MO ANG
Accidentally on Purpose (ONGOING)
RomansaI know that my feelings for you are real because I spent more time thinking of you than my self. You make me happy in a way no one else can. I never thought anyone would even make me smile, laugh, and capture my heart as fast as you have Now...
