3 days, 3 days na lang ang natitira sa akin bago ako tuluyang umuwi sa bansa namin.
Pero, I have this deep urge na umuwi na lang ngayon, besides I don't even know what to do sa natitirang araw ko. I have this passport naman kaso 'yung ticket ko, after 3 days ko pa pwedeng magamit.
I've heard na kahit may passport ka, hindi ka makakauwi kung walang ticket, kung may ticket naman at walang passport, hindi rin makakauwi.
And I need to pay for another plane ticket kung uuwi na ako ngayong araw, the later the ticket, mas mahal.
I didn't bring a lot of money with me.
Ayoko naman manghingi kay Mom, alam niya naman kung gaano ko kagusto pumunta dito before and now that I'm already here, parang gusto ko ng umuwi.
For sure, magtataka 'yun.
I'll stay. I don't wanna waste the money she spent in this vacation.
Hindi lang libo ang ginastos dito ni Mom, it's a gift for me.
“Bakit kasi gusto mo ng umuwi, hm? Like 4 days ka pa lang diyan, meron ka pang 3 days para sulitin bakasyon mo diyan” nakakunot noo na sabi ni Chantha.
“Wala naman akong plano eh” sagot ko.
“So, gusto mo lang?”
“Halos nalibot ko na rin kasi ang buong Seoul, puno na rin ng iba't-ibang picture ang phone ko pero still, hindi ko pa rin naman gugustuhing umuwi. Ayoko sayangin ang perang ginasatos dito ni Mom...” sagot ko tsaka nahiga kama.
“If you bring a lot of money ba, uuwi ka pa rin?” muling tanong ni Chantha.
“Hindi Chantha, this is a gift I've recieved from Mom” nakangiti kong sabi.
“It's because of Bogum kaya gusto mo ng umuwi, diba?” naniniguradong tanong ni Chantha.
“Don't you want to see him anymore?”
Hindi agad ako nakasagot. Naikuwento ko rin kasi kay Chantha ang pangyayari kagabi, about him seeing me with Taehyung.
“He's still mad, ayoko na rin kasi muna na makita niya ako pero tulad nga nga sabi ko, we're breathing the same air, hindi malabong makikita at makikita namin ang isa't-isa” malungkot kong sagot.
“Couz, don't you think ikaw lang nag-iisip na galit siya? he's humble. Maybe, dissapointed lang siya?”
“Kasi muli kong tinangka na tumakbo palayo sa kanya?” I asked as I heave a sigh.
“Couz, hindi sa ano ah? pero kasi, napaka limitation-conscious mong tao. Do you even think na ikaw lang nasasaktan sa ginagawa mo? even your Oppa does” Chantha said, ramdam ko sa boses niya ang pag-aalala.
“Kung Idol lang din ako, and my fan run away from me, not once but twice? iisipin ko talaga na may mali sa akin, tulad nga ng sabi ni Bogum; as if you've seen a demon”
Muli kong naalala ang salitang binanggit niya, and it hurts a lot.
“And the mini doll you made na ibibigay mo dapat sa kanya, nawala dahil sa kagustuhan mong i-maintain ang limitation mo. You wasted the 1st and 2nd chance, Ara...” mahinahong sabi ni Chantha.
“Ara, limitation is controlling the extent of something and not about controlling your happiness.
A simple talk, the chance to hug him or maybe befriending him? do you think it's beyond the limitation?”
Not even knowing, umiiyak na pala ako. Chantha's words just hit me.
I eagerly shakes my head as tears keep on streaming down.
“E-enough Chantha, e-e-enough...” I said, crying out my pain.
I heard Chantha's deep sigh as she utters;
“Sige Couz, call me kung ayos ka na but please Ara, you only have 3 days. Sulitin mo ang bakasyon mo diyan and seek for your real happiness” after that she ended the call.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Secrecy of an Amour Drawn by an Idol (TagLish)
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