You Ruined My Heart

I Wish You Were Here

Finally Harry stopped crying but only because he felt sick and queasy. He covered his mouth, got up and ran to the bathroom.

 He was throwing up into the toilet and Nick helped him, but it wasn't the same. Louis' touches were so calming and so soothing. Nick's touches were just...well..touches. He remembered the day when he was throwing up and Louis came to help him. He remebered when Louis helped him get up from the floor and then their eyes met. He remembered how beautiful Louis looked that day. If only he could feel the same about Nick. "How are you felling?" Nick asked softly as he rubbed Harry's back.

"I feel horrible. I need Louis." Harry said, tears forming in his eyes again.

Then he threw up again. After he was done, he flushed the toilet. "You need to get some rest. This is not healthy for they baby. You go take a nap and I'll make dinner. Okay?" Nick said as he left the bathroom and into the kitchen.

Harry rinsed his mouth and brushed his teeth and then went to his room. He tried to sleep, but he couldn't. Him and Louis always used to sleep in the same bed and now Louis was gone. Only his smell was left. Harry missed the way him and Louis used to cuddle everyday before going to bed. Just thinking about that made Harry's heart sore. Harry started crying again. He wants to see Louis again. He needs to see Louis again. But Louis didn't tell him where he went.

Harry opened the drawer that was next to the bed, and took out a picture of him and Louis. He stared at it for a long time. It was a picture of Louis and Harry's first date. They both were smiling and looking at eachother so fondly. Harry was staring at the photo as tears made their way down his cheeks. He wished he could go back to that day. "Harry, dinner is ready." Nick said as he opened the door only to find Harry staring at a photo.

"Go away. I'm not hungry. I don't want to eat." Harry said as he put the photo back in the drawer.

"But you have to. Or else the baby will die, and I dont want that to happen." Nick said, trying to scare Harry.

"Go away! I dont care about your fucking baby." screamed Harry.

"Fine then. I'll make you." Nick argued back.

"You cant make me." said Harry angrily.

"Yes I can. Watch me!" Nick said as he went and pulled Harry's hand.

Harry pushed his hand away. "I can go by myself. You don't have to push me. Okay?" he said as he got up from bed and went downstairs.

"Good" Nick said as he followed Harry to the kitchen. "Sit down. I made spaghetti with meatballs."

"It better taste good." Harry said as he pulled his chair and sat on it. Nick gave Harry his bowl and then Nick sat next to Harry. Harry tasted the spaghetti and meatball and man was it disgusting. Harry had to spit it out of his mouth and drink all his water. "Ew! What did you cook? This tastes nothing like spaghetti and meatballs. Louis is a way better cooker than you." Harry said.

"Well, at least I tried." Nick said.

"Im going to bed now." Harry said as he got up. "Wait! Can we talk?" Nick said. "What do you want to talk about?" Harry said as he sat back down. "I need to talk to you about the baby." Nick said. "What about the baby?" Harry asked. "Do you want to keep it or not?" Nick asked back. "What do you want?" "I don't know. Thats why I'm asking you."  "I'll just keep it. I don't want to kill it. But keep in mind that this baby means nothing to me." Harry said as he got up and went upstairs. "Ok. Good choice." Nick said as he got up and put the dishes away. Harry was in his bedroom crying and sobbing for Louis. He really wished Louis was here with him. He tried all he could to go back to sleep, but it does'n't work. So he decided that tomorrow morning he will go search all over town to find his Louis if thats what it takes to see his face once again. 

Meanwhile:

Louis was knocking on Zayns door hoping that Zayn wasn't asleep yet. It was 12 am in the morning.

Louis waited unpatiently for Zayn to open the door. Finally after waiting for a long time,the door shot open only to reveal a very sleepy tired looking Zayn.

 "Oh hi Louis! What are you doing here this late--- Wait why do you have a bag with you?" Zayn asked confused and worried at the same time.

"Can I come in first? I'll tell you when we get inside." Louis said.

Zayn opened the the door wide so Louis can come inside. After Louis came inside, he placed his bags next to the door and went to sit on the couch. Zayn did the same. He sat next to Louis. "Now can you tell me what happened?" Zayn asked. Louis sighed. "Its about Harry. He cheated on me and now.....now...he's pregnant with Nick's child. And I couldn't help but leave him." Louis said heartbrokenly. "B-but how can that be possible? He's a male not a female." Zayn asked even more confused.

"I don't know, but Nick told me he went with Harry to his appointment." Louis answered.

"Well Im sorry Lou, is there anything I can do to help?" asked Zayn as he got up to hug him. Louis didn't have the mood to hug Zayn back but he didn't let go either. "Thanks Zayn. But I don't think there's anything you can do to help now. Can I stay here for a few days though? I need to stay somewhere before I can buy my own flat." Louis asked.

"Of course Louis. You can stay here for as long as you want. But are you ever going back to Harry?" Zayn said. "No. I dont think I want to see him again. I don't even think he wants to see me. He's going to start his own family and I don't think he wants me to ruin it." Louis said as he got up and went to get his bag that was next to the door. "Now can you show me to my room Zayn?" Louis asked.

"Sure. Follow me." Zayn answered as he led Louis upstairs to the guest room. He opened the guest room door, lit the lights and let Louis in. "Call me if you need anything Louis." Zayn said. "Ya ok." Louis replied. "Goodnight." Zayn said as he closed the door and headed back to his room. Louis placed his heavy bag on top of the bed and opened it. He placed all his clothes on the wardrobe one by one. When he was about to take out his last one, he felt something. It felt like thick paper. He pulled it out. It was a photo of his and Harry's first kiss. He wished that day would come back. He felt tears forming in his eyes. He sat down on his bed so he can look closer at the photo. He remembered that day. Him and Harry went to their first date and they kissed for the first time. It was the most delightful kiss he ever felt. If only he knew what was coming. The boy he was kissing in the picture was the boy he loved the most and meant the universe to him, but if only knew sooner that that boy never loved him back. If only he knew that Harry was cheating on him earlier, he wouldn't have to go through all this. And the worse part is that the boy he kissed in the picture is now pregnant with someone else but him.

Just looking at the picture more and more made Louis' tear come rushing down faster and faster. He is ruined. His life is ruined. And most of all, his heart was ruined. Everything is ruined. So he ripped the photo into pieces and threw them on the floor and began sobbing loudly onto his pillows. He cried and cried and he cried until he cried himself to sleep. This was just the beginning of his life without Harry and its already starting to feel like pain.