The Cruel Alpha's Mate!

Bad Memories...

"And when I think I can finally be happy the memories sneak out of my eyes and roll down my cheeks..."

Trevor's pov

"Lily, do you accept me as your mate?"

I can't stop shaking as I allow these words leave my mouth.

The fear is breaking my heart into pieces. What if she rejects me?

I did awful things, I could have killed my own sister and father, not to mention everyone else. I was so stupid! Who could I trust so blindly Lucas when my wolf was telling me that something was happening with Mira?

I am an idiot but I don't want to lose Lily... I don't want to lose anyone. I know I am distant with everyone except from Max that is constantly on my side and I feel quite comfortable with him but I really want to get closer to everyone and try to replenish the lost years. My first priorities now are Mira, my father and Lily... These three are the most important persons for me but with Lily is a bit different, she is my mate and I am too scared.

I observe her face and gasp for air panicked. These are some of the most torturing seconds of my life and my wolf isn't helping me at all as he is worse than me.

Lily is pale, her expression is blank but I can listen to her fast heartbeat, she feels what I feel, she is frustrated.

"I..." she tries to say but pauses breathless.

"I don't know... I need time." She manages to whisper some seconds later and storms inside the house like someone is chasing her.

I stay like a statue staring at Max that has the same shocked expression with me. I think my heart is not beating, it stopped and I want to die.

Lily is going to reject me, she is just trying to make it slowly and give me time to realize it. I will stay alone...

I am lost and I don't see, hear or feel anything until Max taps my shoulder and I jump up surprised. I turn to look at him on my right and he gives me a sympathetic smile.

"Try to think positively cousin. She needs time, she said it clearly. I have a good feeling, don't worry. If you want, I will talk to her." He whispers softly.

"She hates me or she is scared of me Max. She won't accept me. Thanks for your offer to help but please don't. I have to respect her wish and..."

"Hey you two! Come! We are all waiting for you to begin. Nick and Catherine have to explain us what happened." Oliver yells from inside the house and cuts me off.

I nod and give a meaningful look to Max who understands he has to keep everything as a secret and turns to Oliver who is staring at us confused.

"Yes bro. We were just talking and forgot about it." He excuses us and Oliver nods still troubled.

I guess we haven't convinced him but he decides to let it pass for now. He turns and heads to the living room with Max and me following him close behind.

We walk in a long, large corridor in white color with some pictures from the pack on the walls and four black doors on our left and right which are probably the dining room, the kitchen, the security room with the cameras and a small office. In the end of the corridor there is a big, double, black open door that leads to the large living room with the walls in different shades of grey, with a big, short black table in the middle, two massive grey sofas on the left and right side of it, some black, leather armchairs next to the sofas and a big fireplace from stones behind the table in the middle of the wall. Around the room there are some more pictures and modern paintings, a black, living room composite with a TV and at the other side of the wall a bar with drinks and glasses in lots of shapes and sizes. At the middle of the wall on our right there are large stairs that lead upstairs at the other floors and downstairs at the big underground floor with a gym, a video game's room and a cellar and next the stairs there is the main playroom's big, black door.