my baby boy → jack gilinsky →sequel to my babygirl

chapter seven ♡

lillian ♡

"what?" i said turning to her.

"remember how i told you i was gonna get tested after my grandma passed because what she had was genetic?" she asked me.

"yes. you told me.. you said you were okay" i said.

"i know. i-i couldn't tell you"

"why not? zoey, i-i love you and i don't want you to hide that from me" i said.

"you just found out you were pregnant. i was-you were happy. both of you.. how could i do that to you? what kind of friend would i be? i'm sorry" she said.

i let out a sigh and looked at her. "well.. are you gonna be okay?"

"i-i don't know. i've only had a few doctor visits.. and it's early still but i got tested right after the test came back saying i would have what's she had sometime. i got tested immediately and i have it now. but it's early so.."

"is that a good thing? they can do something about it?"

"i'm not sure" she whispered and nate put his hand in hers.

"hey, whatever happens zoey.. were here for you. all of us" jack said to her.

"thank you. that-that means a lot" she smiled at us.

"yeah, we love you" i smiled and reached over and gave her free hand a squeeze.

"i love you guys" she smiled and we all pulled her into a group hug and it was nice until the baby monitor in my hand started crying.

it was bailey. i pulled away from the hug and told jack i got it, and walked to baileys room and set the monitor down. i sat down on my bed and picked up the baby and held him.

"what's wrong?" i asked him but i already knew that my baby was hungry. it was about time he should eat anyways. "i bet you're hungry"

i stood up with him still in my arms and walked to leave the room when i saw the picture frame on me and jacks dresser with a picture of me and my mom. when i was about baileys age. not too old. she was holding me and smiling.

god, you don't understand how much i wish i could share this experience of having my first child with her. i really miss her.

i walked out the room and went to the living room and saw jack sitting on the couch in a conversation with our friends but they looked at me when i walked in.

"baby!" zoey smiled.

"i've got to feed him first" i told her.

"he's so cute!" she exclaimed as i handed him to jack.

i walked to the kitchen then and i fixed bailey his bottle.

when i heard the door slam closed, i walked towards the living room and saw nate and jack looking over at the door.

"what's going on?" i asked.

"she got an email.. i think you should talk to her. she needs you" nate said. "there's nothing i could say"

"well jack, could you feed him? the bottles ready" i said as grabbed it.

"yeah" he said and i brought it to him.

i walked outside and i saw zoey sitting down by the door with her hands over her face like she was crying. so i sat down next to her.

"zo?" i questioned and she looked up at me with tears in her eyes. "what happened?"

"it's really bad. i got some results from bloodwork just now and.. they said they can't do much and it's too soon to start treatements and when it will be the right time, i will most likely be dead." she said.

those words broke my heart into a million tiny pieces. i grabbed her hand and held it tightly in mine. "maybe-"

"no, lily" she said looking at me. "there's no miracles.. i-im gonna die before i can watch you get married. i'm gonna die before i get to get married, before i get to have kids. b-before i even start my life. that's not fair but there's no saving me" she cried.

she leaned her head on me and i put my hand around her and let her cry on me as i cried too because i hated to see zoey like this. i never wanted this for her. i didn't want her to die, ever. she's my bestfriend and she's always been there for me since highschool.. she never left me when everyone else did. she has always stuck by my side. i don't know how i could ever do any of this without her. i'm scared of losing her.

"you're wrong" i said and she lifted her head and looked at me confused.

"what?"

"there's one thing wrong about what you just said" i said.

"what?" she asked me.

"you will be there when i get married." i said.

"lily, you're getting married in december.. that's in two months. my doctors don't think i have that long"

"then i'll move it. i'll move the wedding. because i can.. and there may be nothing anyone can do to save you and that breaks my heart a lot but there's something i can do for you.. i can move my wedding because i'm not getting married without you. i already have to do it without my mom"

"lily, i-i can't let you ruin your dream wedding for me." she said.

"my dream wedding is anywhere as long as you are there and jack is. i don't care.. i just want you there." i said.

"you'd do that for me?"

"isn't it obvious by now? id do anything for you" i smiled.

"you're gonna be an amazing wife to jack and you're gonna be an incredible mother to all ten of your kids.. i just wish i could be there with all of them." she said.

"me too" i said. "me too, zoey"

tears started to roll down my face now and i couldn't stop them this time.

"i love you!" she said and pulled me into a hug.

"i love you too" i whispered in her arms. i was scared to let go, i didn't want to let go of her ever again.

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im not sure where i wanna go with this book yet, so if you have any ideas for me, feel free to comment any time!!
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