Can Our Love Survive?

Chapter 10

Natasha's POV
The last few weeks have been pretty good Bucky has been telling me as much as he can remember, I've been reminding him of as much as I can. But I haven't seen him in a few days guess he's on a mission. It's been 5 days and my training with him is finally starting again. I walk into the training room and see Bucky on the floor his face on his knees and he's crying. "James!" I rush over to him. "James! What's wrong?" I've never seen Bucky have a moment like this even after countless sessions with Hydra, discussions about Steve. Something must be wrong. Bucky looks at me. "I killed someone, more than someone I killed a whole family." I look at him for a moment confused I haven't gotten to the point where I finish my training, complete the ceremony, and go on missions for the KGB, but I know they involve killings. "Why are you so upset about this? Killing is part of the job." I say as sweetly as I can. "Not where I come from I was forced to do this, I couldn't control myself when I was ripping these children apart. The old Bucky never would have done that." I see him start to cry again. I sit closer to him and give him a hug. "It's okay, Bucky. We will get you out of Hydra if we need to, I will do anything for you." I grab his face and give him a kiss on the lips.

The next few weeks were worse Bucky was always upset, but after that he started to forget a lot of stuff, I had to remind him of my name sometimes and even his once or twice. I had a little time before my ballet lesson so I rushed to find Bucky. He was sitting on his bed, cleaning his gun. "Hey, sir." I say sitting on the chair near the door. "Hey doll." Luckily he hasn't forgotten that. "Hey I have a question maybe we could send Steve a letter and tell him to come here, we could escape together." Bucky looked up at me. "Who?" I started to panic he can't forget Steve! I was losing James Barnes and seeing more of the Winter Soldier every day now. "Captain America." I say hoping it rings bell. "No, I don't know him."Bucky says, continuing to wipe his gun. "Steven Rogers." Bucky looks slightly annoyed. "Natalia, I don't know him, please leave me alone." He grabs his gun and exits the room. I stare at him in shock as he walks away. I can't lose him. I can't.

Bucky's POV
I sit waiting for the Hydra agents to finish setting up the cryo chamber, I was told for test 2 I would need to stay in a full week. I see Zola checking items off his clipboard. "Zola, do I know a Steven Rogers?" I ask hoping to get this cleared up. "No you don't know him." Zola responds. Why would Natalia say that? Was Steve someone I knew? Did Hydra take him away? I'm shaken out of my thoughts by Zola. "We are ready for you, Soldier." I step into the chamber, it's cold, I watch as many agents hook me into it, then shut the door. I feel cold for a few seconds then sleepy then everything goes dark.

Natasha's POV
"He forgot Steve!" I say gushing about all my worries to Yelena. "I'm losing him." I say trying to hold back the tears. "And I haven't seen him in 6 days." Yelena looks at me for a minute then replies. "I think you should go see him, check out Hydra see if he's there." I smirk, Yelena is encouraging me to break the rules again, but I was thinking it anyway. Okay, I can do this I tell myself, I can get James back.

I head into the Hydra room Bucky is always in, its past midnight everyone is asleep everyone except me. I walk in I don't see anything unusual until I see someone in the back, I walk towards it, having my gun ready in case. "James?" I whisper. What happened to him? He's in some sort of chamber and he's unconscious. What are they doing to him? I look at him through the glass, and pray we can fix our relationship. And pray he's still some what James and not completely the Winter Soldier yet. "I will fix this James." I whisper and then hurry back to my room.