Confession of A profession

Chapter 3 "Regret"

I looked around and the room is spinning from a massive hangover. I hear the shower running so I slowly get out the bed and quickly find my close. I can't believe that I slept with him. What was I thinking. I finally put on my clothes and started to head for the door. "Leaving so soon" I turned and looked at him, he walked toward me. "Uh yea I am I work to catch up on and this was a huge mistake." "Mmm the way you were last night it didn't seem like it was a mistake." I couldn't make a argument because last night was a blur. "i don't remember anything and as far as i'm concerned this will never happen again." I knew that was a lie and I could tell he did to. " Come sit down and we can talk about this." I reluctantly sat down. He sat beside me and placed his hand on my thigh. "it's okay that you're scared, but i know you had a good time and so did I." I couldn't say anything but " I need to leave." With that I got up grabbed my keys and left. I headed home and called my husband who told me he was coming back early. I started to panic. I called Aaliyah and told her everything. She rushed to my house. " i knew it had to be something caused I couldn't find you for awhile." "Yea I'm so stupid how i could be so helpless." " so what are you going to do now ? Are you going to tell Marcus, Oh god what about him." She was right what am I going to say to him. " He's coming home early, like later tonight." she sighed and told me that I should come clean with him. Later that night I pondered on what to do. Marcus arrived at home and I greeted him with a kiss but something felt off. "I missed you so much" He kisses me once more and finally I got the one thing I been waiting for a whole year. " I'm sorry for not giving you the attention you need let me make it up to you."
The next morning I was happy, nothing felt better than being in my bed with my husband after a great night it was worth the wait. I still regret what I've done but how could I tell him after what we just did. "Good morning beautiful" I smiled up at him and I thought I couldn't leave this or give him reason to go. "Morning, and about what you said last night you didn't need to apologize you work to keep providing for us I understand." We just laid there for awhile.
Months passed and I still haven't told Marcus what happened. I don't know if I should but things have been going okay. Marcus started working more than usual and I been feeling sick for the last couple of weeks. I decided to go to the doctors with Aaliyah. " Hello Mrs. Lowery, how are you feeling ?" " i'm tired all the time, i've been throwing up some mornings." I hope it's not what I think. "Well we ran some test and there's good news and some bad news." " Okay I can take it." I can't imagine what he's going to say. " Well congratulations your pregnant, but there's also some bad news we need to treat right away. You have contracted chlamydia." My heart dropped down to my feet. " what do mean chlamydia?" The doctor explained everything's fine we can treat it but I have see who gave this to me. It's either Marcus or Jeremey. I realized that being pregnant was the good side of the doctors visit but how could I have gotten that, what about the baby. As Aaliyah drove me home we sat in quite until she finally spoke up. " I don't want you're feeling but i know it's going to be rough, but it's okay i'm going to be helping every step of the way." I smiled and started to cry. "what am I going to tell Marcus ? I don't know if it's his. And on top of that I have Chlamydia." We arrived at my house and I went inside. Aaliyah tried to follow me but I told her I wanted to be alone so she left. I started thinking there's only one thing left to do now. My phone started to ring; it was Jeremey. 'Hey babe how's it going?'  I didn't tell him or Marcus about me having an appointment today,i'm not sure on how they will take it. 'i'm doing well.' I tried to fight back my tears. 'That's good so do you want to go out tonight, or will you be not cuddled up with that sorry man you call a husband.' I don't know why but i didn't defend Marcus because lately he hasn't been acting like a husband should. ' Um no, I have no plans. Where we going.' He told me where to meet him and I had to come clean there.
Marcus arrived at home and didn't even say anything to me. " Um hello am I invisible?" Still he said nothing. So I decided to yell out " I'm pregnant!" When those words passed my lips I knew I wanted immediately take them back. "Your what ? How?" He looked surprised. " what do you mean how ? We had sex that's how anyone would get pregnant!" He came and sat beside me and told me the most heart breaking news. "When we had sex I used a condom." I couldn't do anything but go to our room and cry. I locked the door behind me. I just wanted to make everything go away.