Confession of A profession

Chapter 8 " My World Came Crashing Down"

Frozen in my tracks I stared at Marcus, and immediately looked back at Jeremy. "So is this him ?" I nodded and before anyone could say anything I said something " Before anything goes down, let's be civil for the baby, and I know everyone here wants me to choose who I want to be with..." "Yea we do, by the way i'm here for damage control and to hold my nephew in case shit goes south." Aaliyah popped up in the doorway then grabbed baby William and took him to his room." It was still dead silence, I could tell Marcus still wanted me even though I literally did him wrong. I just wanted some spice in my life and I wouldn't think less of him if he wanted to leave me and never speak to me again. Part of me understood that and part of me didn't want that. On the other hand Jeremy honestly was a relapse moment of lust and I ended up getting a beautiful baby, I wanted to be a family just not with him. Marcus cleared his throat and spoke " Well I just came here to get some clothes and talk to you about things going forward but I see I interrupted something. I just wanted to say, I still love you despite of your faults and this slip up, we fell out and I can say I did my dirt as well but I'm not sure if we can continue to be US right now it's gone take sometime to forgive you." I tried to hold back my tears . I wanted so bad to hug and love him dearly and plead but I knew it would just make me look like a fool even more. Marcus got up went upstairs and packed some things and left. Aaliyah still had William in the room. I thought this was a good time to see where Jeremy stood. " Look we aren't exactly together but I love you and i'm glad we have a baby boy to share our love together. So I have something to ask you." Jeremy reached for his pocket and I froze. I know this fool wasn't about to ask me to marry him after what just happened. Marcus is still my husband and clearly he still loves me and I love him but somewhere deep down Jeremy has a place in my heart. I'm just confused. "You need to leave now." I couldn't do this right now, so I made him go I needed to talk this over with Aaliyah and I needed time to be with my baby boy. "  Let me stay we can talk about this, we can work things out." I pointed to the door and he stormed out. Aaliyah finally came out the room. Marcus followed soon after and left as well. "So what are you going to do?" I didn't have an answer I just want to be stress free for a couple of weeks or maybe even months. " I just need time alone with my child and my best friend." She nodded and we kicked back and watch movies like old times without a care in the world but in the back of my mind thoughts were trying to surface.
Months later my baby boy is getting ready to turn one and he's full of life. " Who's mama baby" He smiles and continues to play with Aaliyah. She has been by my side since the day Marcus left and Jeremey did a pitiful marriage proposal. " What's on the agenda today" Aaliyah asked with a happy look on her face. " Shopping for Williams first birthday party which haven't started planning yet and it's in 2 days." She smiled and picked up William to get him ready for the day ahead. We arrived to our first store of the day and William ran everywhere, did I mentioned he's started to walk. " How about this theme, Paw Patrol?" I nod and we continue shop and enjoy our day until we ran into the man himself, Jeremy. " Hey how's my boy doing?" It's been months and I've missed him and.....you of course. I'm still awaiting an answer." I looked at him and before I could say anything, Aaliyah chimed in and yelled at him and attracted a crowd of people. We eventually got kicked out and had to settle for Walmart to shop instead of party city. " Can't believe he just showed up like that, I hate that after all this time he's the only one who reached out why him and not Marcus."
  We finally got back to the house and continued to plan the party. William is finally down for bed and I couldn't help but think about what happened at the store. Things are most certainly getting out of hand with Jeremy. "Okay so where do you want to hang this ?" I pointed to the corner. Aaliyah noticed I looked a little down. Can you honestly blame me? "Are you going to be okay? Cause we can finish this tomorrow" I shook my head no and continued to plan the party. We have very little time to make this day truly special.
Despite everything leading to me getting my baby boy, right now it doesn't even hold a candle to the joy on his face. "Will let's get ready today's your big day!" He smiled at me and continued to giggle. "Bah bah." He's such a happy baby. "Y'all ready yet? Cause people are starting to arrive." Aaliyah acting like this her kids party . " girl we coming sheesh." I laugh and grab William and head out the door.
"Hey everyone sorry had to get the birthday boy looking handsome." I great everyone and William is running around. I can't believe he's one already.
"Think it's time he opens some gifts?" I turned around and saw Marcus standing there with a gift bag in his hand and William in the other. "Hey how are you ?" I'm so happy to see him. "I'm good, I wanted to talk to you after this is all settled down." I agree and go back to the party. My mother is here along with my step father. They actually don't know much of what happened with Marcus and I. I like to keep it that way. Marcus knows that as well so we will just pretend until we really work things out, god I hope we work things out.