YASMIN

Chapter Thirty-Two

WARNING :
THIS CHAPTER HAS SLIGHT TRIGGERS CONCERNING SELF HARM!!!!!! PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE
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Huzaifa watched Yasmin pick up the walk pass the towel he had thrown on the bed,to go to her musallah and begin to offer her esha salaah.His heart contracted at the sight of tears pouring down her face as she offered her salaah and he looked away,unable to bare the thought of not comforting her when she needed him the most.

He would never forget the spark leaving her eyes,the blood draining from her face when he sat her down to tell her about nani.The empty look in her eyes killed him but what killed him even more was the heart wrenching sob she let out as she clung to him.He had taken her to her parents house from where the janazah had left and he could still see her sitting in one corner,staring at the bodies wrapped in their kaffins and just being blank.She had only come forward once,that was to wrap the head part of the kaffins before the janazahs were lifted away.

Five days had passed,his wife was now a machine.Eating,sleeping and praying.She did nothing more.She would not even go to her reading nook when she had to read Quraan,she would sit on the bed a pillow in on her legs as she read Quraan.She cooked for them but she would eat before he came or after he left.This hurt Huzaifa but he choose to remain quiet.H knew she was not in the right state of mind,he could not find it in him to ask her to wait or eat with him.Yet a part of him,constantly nagged him that maybe she was not eating.He only knew she was eating from what she told him but he never saw her empty plates.That’s why on the first Sunday together his suspicions had been confirmed,he had not seen her once lift a plate and he now made up his mind he would get her to eat with him to make sure that nothing affected her health.

Yasmin finished off her salaah,folding her musallah when she felt Huzaifa stand next to her.She looked over at him as he gazed at her,his lips turned up in a small smile.

“Let’s go eat.I’m hungry.” At the thought of food,Yasmin felt a wave of nausea hit her but she held it away.She wanted to refuse when he held her arm gently,“Please.I want to eat with you.” His soft tone,almost begging had Yasmin nodding her head before she realized what she was doing.

“Okay.” Hiis smile sent her heart beating faster for the first time in a couple of days and she followed him to the kitchen.Yasmin sat down on Huzaifa’s order while he went into the kitchen,only to come back with two plates filled with pasta.He handed one to her as he sat down at the eating table.

Yasmin looked down at the food,nauseated by the mere smell of it but she knew she had to eat or else Huzaifa would know she had not eaten a proper meal since the mayet.Her nana and nani’s mayet.She thought,tears filling her which she quickly blinked away bring the fork to her mouth.With great difficulty she swallowed the food,hoping that she would be done as quick as possible.Once she got done,she looked up at a smiling Huzaifa who was also done with his food.

“Want to watch a movie?”

Yasmin shook her head,“No,I just want to go take a quick bath and lay down for a while.”

Huzaifa’s smile dimmed but he nodded his head,biting his lip in dismay.Maybe it was a bit too early to push for much but he could not help to hope.Yasmin begun to walk away only for Huzaifa to stop her with a hand on her arm.She turned to face him as he stood up.

“Jee?”

Huzaifa pulled her closer to him,pressing a kiss to her forehead,“I love you,Yasmin.”

His words brought tears to her eyes,her throat started to close up as she glanced up at him,“I love you too,Huzaifa.” Her voice cracking at the end.