ADDICT | MINSUNG ✔️

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''dominating is hard.'' jisung complained once they were stood under the shower and he had helped minho come out of his barely subspace.

''so is being submissive,'' minho countered. ''being able to give someone full control over your body and sometimes even mind.''

''but being able to take control over someone is harder,'' the younger argumented. ''you have to be confident for it.''

''i think both can be hard if they feel unnatural,'' he shrugged. ''no offence, but i don't really like subbing that much.''

jisung sighed, massaging his boyfriend's scalp with soft hands. ''i didn't like dominating either, if i'm honest. it felt weird.''

they laughed softly for a moment. ''at least we tried that out, hm?'' minho chuckled.

''yeah,'' jisung agreed. ''i should've known i was fully submissive.''

minho giggled. ''i've subbed about three times and i didn't like any of them more than dominating, i like being in control.''

he stayed quiet, just listening to his boyfriend's sweet voice speaking.

''you did great though,'' he complimented. ''this one dude basically beat the shit out of me with a flogger and ignored my safewording. i was barely even in subspace so i just pushed him off of the bed and yelled at him. my ass did hurt for a few days after that, it was basically purple, couldn't even sit i swear.''

it was supposed to be funny, but it certainly wasn't now that he actually said it out loud. it wasn't funny when he felt tears building up at the awful memory, the first time he had talked about it out loud.

jisung hugged him tight. ''i'm so sorry that happened to you,'' the younger whispered. ''you can establish a safeword with me if you want, doms should have a safeword as well.''

''don't think i'll ever use it,'' minho shrugged, enjoying the hands rubbing over his back. ''but let's say 'zebra'.''

''good,'' jisung praised softly. ''does that feel safer?''

minho laughed lightly. ''it actually does,'' he admitted. ''i didn't expect it to.''

the younger smiled into his chest. ''glad to hear, honey,'' jisung said. ''i love it when you feel safe, it makes me feel good.''

''we really are two soft gays, huh?'' minho giggled, wanting to kiss his boyfriend but the other refusing to let go of the hug.

''honestly,'' the younger started. ''we've been through so much shit, we both deserve this.''

subconsciously, minho let his hands fall on jisung's ass and cup his cheeks, stroking his fingers over the skin while he seemed to be thinking.

jisung didn't say anything, just keeping his head buried in his boyfriend's chest and enjoying the soft touch.

as minho brung his hand down on the flesh lightly he jerked a bit. ''don't do that.'' he warned.

''got carried away,'' minho apologised, going back to just resting his hands on his cheeks. ''i love you.''

''i love you too,'' jisung replied, puckering his lips a few times to place soft kisses on his lover's chest. ''it's really brave of you to let me dom you after your experience.''

minho chuckled. ''i could say the exact same about you, sweets. i'm so proud of you, every day you seem to get better and that makes me so happy.''

the younger hummed in agreement. ''you make it feel easy,'' jisung explained. ''i don't have to worry about safety, i trust you.''

he laughed softly. ''good,'' minho confirmed. 'would be awkward if i trusted you this much without you trusting me.''

jisung didn't know what else to do than giggle quietly. ''it sounds creepy when i say i want to be with you for forever, but i do hope we will be.''

''so do i, baby,'' the older agreed. ''you're the best thing that ever happened to me.''

lazy, jisung hummed in agreement, giving his boyfriend's chest a few more soft pecks before peeling himself away and kissing his lips.

''you're so small,'' minho cooed. ''perfectly cut out for being in my arms.''

''gonna start a petition.'' jisung mumbled sleepily.

''for?'' the older asked, rubbing a crooked circle into his boyfriend's back.

''to be in your arms forever.'' he giggled, the other just huffing out a laugh through his nose.

''hey, min?'' the younger asked with his voice a pitch higher than usual. ''thank you for giving me the chance to dominate you even when you knew you don't like it.''

minho smiled, maybe more genuine than usual, maybe it had grown too hard to fake it around the other. ''thank you for trying out things with me because you feel safe enough.''

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