A Darker Truth

Chapter 5

I hate people. Well, I don't but I do. People annoy me sometimes with the way they talk, always acting like they're better than everyone else. Like, shut the fuck up Jessica, no one cares about your Starbucks drink or McDonald's fries.
What was the point of this? I don't know. Just thought it would do some good to bring it to attention.

Sometimes I'm scared. We all are. But sometimes my sometimes becomes all the time and my all the time changes my sometimes to forever for a day.
Did that make sense? A bit, Yeah. Fuck the rules man. I'll avoid those football games and just stay in my room alone. Who says I have to be a team player all the time? My team is just me, fucker.

I hate teams man. I just wanna get along with people even though I hate them. Come on man. I'm tired of being picked last all the damn time. Like please, just pick me first for once.
Maybe if i was popular I wouldn't have to deal with the constant feeling of rejection. I'm like a kid in a candy store being told no while my fucking brother gets told yes.

Today I almost punched a bitch. She kept shoving me, calling me a hoe. Sorry Brittney, not my fault you can't keep your fucking legs closed. Fishy bitch.

God, that reminds me of past times and past fights where mom would get yelled at for being a so-called whore while my dad fucked every woman in a hundred mile radius.

I don't like cheaters. Dad cheated, mom cheated, my brother cheated, my exes cheated.
This world is full of fucking cheaters. Maybe I should cheat myself out of life. All it takes is a rope or some pills.

I'm so
Tired
Of everything.
People, cheaters, teams, life, etc, etc.
I'm tired of these damn thoughts that flood my mind at least a million times a day.

And I'm just tired..
I really wanna nap.....
I'm gonna take a nap.