What if I told you there's a place full of rage
A book that gets gory and you can't turn the page
Trapped with no way out
Locked in a cage
I know what you'd say
I'm gonna scream
Listen
What if I told you what it sounds like
Shut up
Kill yourself
Dead self-esteem
Inside of my mind that's all i hear, a scheme
Is it true? Please tell me, who?
I don't have real friends
But I'll talk to you if I have to
I'll say I'm fine, just to get myself off your mind
I see everyone, they say, "Hey how's life?"
They don't care
They don't mean it
Everyone is dead to me
I bow down on one knee
Oh lord
I used to ask
What's wrong with me
Why do I think of these things
Oh God why can't I see
Why can't I BREATH
I need to punish me
Starve and repeat
Throw up and retreat
What if I told you it's real
What if I told you I'm trapped in this deal
This is just how i feel
I hate it, I love it, I don't know how to heal
I cut myself and don't know what's ideal
I think it's my own life I will steal
