Loving Khyree (That Zaddy Collection Book #1)

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Khyree

I moved around Nat's room thinking. I had a brother..? An actual dad that I never got to meet, because of her. Carly took that chance from me, I could have stayed away from being locked up in prison for 20 years. Judson died while I spent my first year in a juvenile detention center. Everytime I asked about my dad, Carly would get such a violent and aggressive attitude with me.

I see why. Judson tried to help her and Carly didn't want it. Just like I tried to help her...

Omari had went to his business meeting, leaving me and Travion to talk. Nat gave me that time to talk to him and ran to Dime with Brayton, after he dropped off Kenia at her photoshoot. As I got to know Travion better, he and I shared similar things. We both liked to draw, he was quiet and he liked the same certain foods I liked. He told me of his thoughts on a mother that rejected him at birth because of his condition. I may not like to talk much, but I wanted him to know that even though we met late in life, I had his back. Him and Omari were technically the only family I had. I couldn't count Carly, my own mother, as family.

Omari came back picking Travion and me and Mrs. Simmons went to work. I got some advice from the cousins and Tracey, about talking with Natalie. If I wanted to seriously talk with Nat, set a calming and warm atmosphere. Help her ease her mind, because I knew what I had to say would be hard for her to digest.

"Ok-" Natalie stopped walking in her room and looked around. The lights were low and I had just came in with the warm plate of food that Mrs. Simmons helped me cook. Nat looked at me and gave me a small, but yet concerning smile.

"Uhh... remember I wanted to tell you after Omari and Travion." I said nervously. She dropped her bookbag on the loveseat and shut the door quietly. Nat gave me a sad smile and walked up to me. Nat tugged my arm, a signal letting me know that she wanted a kiss. She rubbed my cheeks with both hands and looked at me softly.

"You know, you don't have to feel like you need to tell me. I was just upset that I didn't know what you were in for. It's ok to be upset with someone you care about. That's emotions and your feelings, but it doesn't mean that I don't want to be with you anymore...because I do. I..." She stopped for a minute, staring at me with this look in her eyes. She gave me a smile and kissed me deep, but soft.

I liked the way her lips felt, I liked that she always enjoyed being around me. It was like she didn't care if I wanted to stay home, as long as she was with me. Her lips moved with mines slowly and I pulled her closer to me, while she wrapped her arms around my neck. She pulled away from me and I stared down at her.

She was beautiful and honestly, I wanted to tell my story, so that I can be at peace and have Natalie in my life. She was showing me something that I didn't think I ever deserved, she was an open book and I started to see that she was real in her feelings for me. I just didn't want to think that she didn't want me. Cuz I was weak at that moment, scared and confused. I kept myself in that mental space, where I shut everything out because of the betrayal I felt with Carly, after everything I done, sacrificed for her. I honestly couldn't trust anybody because of Carly. I was scared that anybody would flip the switch on me like she did and I'd have to start over again. But the people I associated myself with because of Mrs. Simmons and Natalie, I was starting to trust. But, I was still nervous that if Nat heard my story, then she wouldn't want me anymore. I didn't want to lose what we was, I had a real fear of losing her. Because I needed her...I loved her...

I loved Natalie.

There wasn't no confusion, doubt or anything. I was positive that these growing feelings I been having for her, was more than me just liking her. I was scared of losing what we were sharing. I wanted to keep it and the fear of telling Nat my story, made me afraid of what she would think of me.