crimson tears ➣ pjm

➣ six

the mind is the worst place to be in. catastrophic. 

look what it's done to me. i woke up with my face on the bathroom floor. i'm a mess. but who isn't? 

i stood up, flushed my vomit down the toilet and splashed my face with cold water in the sink. i went back to my bedroom to look for my phone. apparently, i've been asleep for ten hours now. it's two in the morning. my stomach's grumbling but i don't want to cook anything. i'm going to take a walk to the nearest convenience store and just get some snacks. i'm not a heavy-eater, so it doesn't really matter.

i opened my front door and saw a sleeping girl right outside. the red hair looks familiar. 

"jess?" i asked as i locked my door behind me. she looked up at me. i was right. it is jessica, one of my exes. we dated for six months. it's been about a year since we broke up.

"what are you doing here this late?"

"hi, jimin." she smiled that stupid smile that makes me want to throw her out of my window. i live on the twenty-seventh floor.

"why the fuck are you here?" the change in my tone made her tense up exactly as i wanted her to. 

"i...i actually have been here since you got home. you know...i saw you at the bar earlier and you didn't seem all too well. i was about to offer you a ride when you got inside an uber."

"so you decided it was an excellent idea to follow me home?"

"well, i wanted to make sure you were okay. i knocked on your door and rang your doorbell a dozen times, but you never answered. i think i heard you puking. i decided to wait it out until you're sober."

"why the fuck do you care? don't you have a boyfriend to babysit?"

"rick and i broke up two months ago, jimin."

"so what? you decide to come here and have me as your rebound? didn't we already talk about how i never get back with any of my exes?"

"no, jimin. i came back because i still care. we were best friends for the six months we dated. those feelings don't go away so easily."

"that's cute." i started walking towards the elevator. i pressed the button to go down. "those feelings didn't seem to be there when you decided to fuck another man on our bed on my fucking birthday."

the door to the elevator opened and she tried to follow me inside.

"listen, i know you're horny and you're itching to rub that pussy somewhere but i'm not fucking you tonight, jessica. or ever again. so get off my dick and cut it with your lies before i cut that tongue of yours."

she came to a halt and didn't step foot inside the elevator. i watched her doe eyes that were filled with hurt turn into that of an animal who just had its prey taken away from it in mere seconds.

i gave her a smile before the doors closed in.