The True Bond

Chapter 13 "If He's Happy, I'm Happy"

~THIS ALL IN SHANIA'S P.OV. AND HOW SHE IS STILL AT HOME SOAKING IN HER OWN TEARS POOR SHA. IT'S SHORT BUT STILL ENJOY~

                              CHAPTER 13 "IF HE'S HAPPY, I'M HAPPY"

                    SHANIA'S P.O.V

     I just woke up and instantly remembered what happened at school. Tears started rolling down my cheeks once again. I knew I couldn't sleep away the pain. I can't take the pain swelling up in my chest. I can't take it. My mate basically rejected me and it hurts so much. He must hate me. I can understand that though. If all of a sudden you were bound to one person who you don't even know I would be like what the fuck too. But, I wanted to be bound to somebody. That person that was meant for me and only me. I was happy when I looked into Raphael's green eyes and found out he was my mate. Still that's just me; he's probably disgusted with me.

     Again who would love me. I got out of bed and started wandering the house like a lifeless soul. I couldn't stop crying. I wouldn't have been such a good mate anyways. I'm not very pretty and I'm like a little kid a lot of times. So why is it bothering me so much. Raphael, regardless if I knew you or not, I-I wanted to get to know you so badly. No, he doesn't like me and I accept that. I shouldn't dwell on what should've been, on what could've been. I looked at my phone for the time. It's about time to get the girls. I trudged myself to the car and drove to the school.

     There I find Vivian, Briana, and Layla waiting for me in the parking lot. They hopped in and we didn't say a thing on the ride home. When we got home we didn't say anything when we got inside either. I told them leftovers were in the fridge and I headed straight upstairs. I jumped in bed hoping to go to sleep. How will I face him at school? Will I burst into tears? No, I'm a big girl and big girls don't cry. So why is hard to forget, but so easy to remember. I want to make Raphael happy; I don't want to cause trouble.

     I don't want to be a burden, anything but that. The tears again started rolling down my cheeks. If he's happy, I'm happy. Yeah, I'll just keep telling myself that. The pain will eventually go away right? If he's happy, I'm happy. Even if I'm not happy, he is, therefore I am too. I will put up a front and smile wide. My pain will cause people to worry and I don't want that. Do you hear me mom, I'll make it through. This pain is nothing. Tomorrow, yes definitely tomorrow, I will tell Raphael that it's ok. He doesn't need me and I don't need him. It's for the best right?

"Yes but the best for who?", my wof asked.

     Raphael.

"And what about you?", she asked.

     What about me? I'm fine remember. If he's happy, I'm happy.

"If that is so then why are you still crying?".

     I-I don't know and I don't care. Even if I'm not happy that doesn't matter. If he's happy, I'm happy. I closed my eyes repeating the same thing over and over again. I know tears will fall tomorrow, but I won't cry in front of anyone. The pain in my chest started to grow and more tears started to fall. Instead of in my head I started whispering to myself out loud.

"Even if I'm n-not happy, he is, therefore I am too", I whispered still crying.

"If he's happy, I'm happy", I whispered.

     The most reassuring words I could think of, yet these are the ones that hurt the most.

~AWW POOR SHANIA. IF YOU FEEL BAD FOR THE GIRL THEN YOU WOULD VOTE, COMMENT, AND EVEN FAN ME GUYS. CHAPTER 14 SHOULD BE UP A LITTLE AFTER THIS ONE IS UP. GO READ CHAPTER 14 AND SEE HOW SHANIA HANDLES GOING TO SCHOOL :D~