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he's all gone

[Lee Jooheon]

My feet trudged against the floor as I ran another lap. I always knew I'd have to start training again, but I never thought it'd be to kill my boyfriend. My mind was foggy, and I didn't even know what day it was anymore. I felt like I had been in this prison for an eternity.

I had no one, I didn't even think anyone would even try to save me at this point. I was officially alone and I had learned to accept it. I didn't need anyone, I just needed me.

I let them take my thoughts. I let them take my emotions. I didn't want to feel anything anymore, maybe it would make me stop hurting less. My heart constantly ached and my body trembled. I was broken and there was no fixing me.

I wanted to go home, but I didn't want to see their faces. I couldn't face my family, not after all I've put them through. I wasn't worth it. I'm not worth it.

I'm ready to be let go.

"Don't slow down! You have a job to do! You have a mission, let's go!" I looked at the officer, I believed in them now. Every word they said to me was engraved in my brain. Worthless, useless, untalented...all words I heard on the daily.

I'm nothing.

I took orders, I never fought back anymore. I was gone. I wasn't Jooheon, I don't know who I was.

I felt lone tears slide down my face as I ran and ran. And soon after a smile formed. I really hoped he was wearing my ring. The one I left behind. I really hoped he was officially mine, the forever type of love.

And that's what kept me going a little longer. My fantasies of a future family and a future house. Our imaginary kisses and walks downtown. He kept me alive.

But what would happen when he was gone too?

[I.M Changkyun]

"Get the fuck away from me, Seoyeon."

She grabbed at my hand, trying to get a glimpse of my new ring. My forever promise with Jooheon.

"Let me see your finger. It's not that hard, just show me."

I rolled my eyes, walking as fast as I could away from her and to the gym. What me and Jooheon did or said or shared was none of her business.

Yes, I know he loved her at one point, but that's over now. She didn't rush to him when he was down on the floor bleeding out, she didn't watch her favorite shows with him every night, she didn't receive notes from him or have tattoos for him. I did, I was Jooheon's now and she couldn't seem to accept it.

"Let me see the goddamn ring, I.M! Or are you too afraid it was supposed to be mine?" I didn't have to turn around to see her smirk plastered on her face, along with her horrid laughter.

I stopped walking, and turned around. I made sure we were face to face before speaking to her again.

"Seoyeon, I've seen your promise ring. I've been offered your promise ring. But this one, this one is mine. Not yours. This one has engraving and stones and my name written all over it."

Her smirk disappeared. "You're lying. Jooheon doesn't love you, you're his best friend."

"If anything you're the liar. Oh, and the cheater. And the fake bitch I always thought you were. Wouldn't want that to get out, would you?"

"Stay the fuck away from me, Changkyun. I mean it."

"My pleasure."

I've run into Seoyeon a few times after the mission, but I've always been with someone else. So she didn't have the courage to actually say something to me. It's crazy how these things work, she puts on this big bad act and in reality she's just a sad and small girl.

I didn't hate her anymore, I just felt bad for her. I don't really know how much she loved Jooheon, but I know the feeling was there. I just don't understand why she ruined it by hooking up with other people.

Jooheon loved her more than words can explain, and yeah, that scared me. One day he could decide to love her again. But for right now she hurt him, she broke his heart and he doesn't realize it. The last thing he needs to hear when he gets home is, 'Seoyeon cheated on you.'

I just wish she was gone, out of my life. All she did was cause trouble, ever since the mission. Yet she was the closest thing I had to Jooheon.

"Hey! I haven't seen you in a little while, where're you heading?" I saw a head of faded orange hair beside me, and instantly smiled.

"The gym, care to join me?"

"Sounds good to me."

Kihyun was the one who kept me going. He was gone for years, and now that he's here I can't help but be happy. He supports me through everything and has already started planning how we're going to get Jooheon back.

He trained with me every chance he could, and was so excited about Jooheon's letter of engagement. He understand my situation more than anyone else.

And if I didn't have him, I'd probably still my in my room crying or hurting myself. Because let's face the facts, this is all my fault.

If Jooheon never saw me all alone as a kid, we would've had no contact. It's my fault I couldn't just talk to other people. It's my fault I couldn't make my own friends.

It's my fault for liking Jooheon, a guy. Which was totally against some of the gang's liking. We're born to rule an empire, but with a queen not a king.

I messed up everything. So all I wanted to do was fix my mistake. I wanted to bring Jooheon home. No matter who I had to go through, or kill.

I would bring him home before it was too late.