fighter | sequel to monster ✓

i might just kill you

[Lee Jooheon]

"Hit him again."

Stutters occupied my every step, I couldn't do this. I couldn't kill him.

"I said, hit him again! I want to see him down and bleeding, let's go!"

And I obeyed. I swung my fists over and over until the man in front of me couldn't stand back up. I knew this wasn't right, but part of me kept going. Part of me just had to keep spilling an innocent man's blood. I listened as he begged for me to stop, and I just pictured the man as my boyfriend. I really was a monster, and I was going to kill him.

There was no doubt in my mind that what I was doing was so very wrong. But violence consumed my mind. For the past weeks all I've been doing has consisted of harming others or training. I didn't like what I've become.

The officer stood in front of me, hands on my shoulders. "Finish him off."

I looked from the almost dead man to the officer. The man's watery eyes pleaded for me to spare him. I wanted to stop this. But the officer's dead expression told me that if I didn't do my job, I'd regret it.

"I-I can't do it."

A gunshot rang out and I found myself falling to the floor. I laid there in shock, unable to breathe. All I could picture was a girl standing over me, a gun in her hand aimed straight for my chest. I saw her long black hair and piercing eyes so clearly, but I couldn't recall her name. My mind flashed back to her again, but a different scenario. She wore a tight red dress, and she was hugging my boyfriend.

She betrayed both of us. She almost got me killed.

I sat up in horror. I wasn't dead, but the man before me was. The man I had beaten to a bloody pulp now rested beside me with a hole in his head.

"I'm so sorry." I closed his eyes, resting my hand on his chest. I couldn't feel his heart, and my eyes turned into steady waterfalls. I did that, I killed a man.

And I just might kill the love of my life.

I had no doubt about it, I needed to start fighting back. I needed to start fighting for my family and not for Jaebum. I would save my family, not end them.

I could do that, right?

[I.M Changkyun]

"I want her gone."

I stood in front of Shownu, with my arms crossed and a pout on my face. He sighed, leaning back in his chair.

"Changkyun, I cant just kick her out of the gang because you don't like her."

"Stop right there buddy. You can kick her out of the gang because she's a backstabbing bitch who cheated on Jooheon. I wouldn't be surprised if she worked for Jaebum or something."

Shownu held my hand, squeezing it slightly. I knew he understood where I was coming from but he didn't want to agree with me. He didn't want me to be right, again.

"Are you saying she violated gang terms? She untrustworthy and disrespected another member?"

I nodded, without a doubt Seoyeon fit those standards. She was just good at hiding them. She cheated on Jooheon, she hated me and my family for no reason, who knew what else she was hiding?

"Changkyun, I love you okay? And I respect all your opinions and decisions. But it sounds like you're jealous of your boyfriend's ex girlfriend. Are you threatened by her or something?"

I felt my eyes water, could I really just be jealous? Overreacting? No, Jooheon was my boyfriend not hers, I didn't have anything to worry about.

"Wait wait, I'm not saying you should be jealous. Jooheon picked you, he loves you and everyone knows that. And I love that you're happy and in love, but how do you really feel about Seoyeon being here?"

That was the first time I ever heard Shownu accept me. Accept that I loved Jooheon and I was happy. And just for a moment it made me the happiest person alive, my family accepted me. But he only brought it up now because he was accusing me of something, of being jealous.

"I feel that, no I know that she's a liar and she's untrustworthy. I don't care what you think Shownu, I just don't need her in the way of getting my boyfriend back. We're done here."

***

They say the shower is the perfect place to sit and cry. But it just makes me feel worse about myself, so yeah I guess it's a perfect place.

I can't think of a day I haven't cried about losing Jooheon. I knew he was gone at this point, and I didn't know if I'd ever get to be with the real Jooheon again.

Jaebum has been torturing my boyfriend for weeks at this point, and I still haven't even attempted to save him.

That made me a terrible partner, you're supposed to be able to rely on your other half. Jooheon probably is trying to forget me at this point. I wouldn't even blame him, I'm nothing.

Jooheon deserves so much better. I was just insecure and useless at this point.

I'm sorry I'm not enough. That's all I want to tell him before he's gone. Before he doesn't remember his family at all, his gang.

Will you remember me, Jooheon? Even when you have nothing left. When you're so close to just letting go, will I still be on your mind?

Because you'll always be the first thing I think of every morning and every night. You'll always be my love no matter what happens.

No matter what you do.

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hi guys! i have to ask a little favor.

can you please comment anything you don't like about this book? i want to make it so much better and i feel like i'm not doing a good job at writing the sequel :(

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