Dear diary,
Do you know what it's like to feel so angry, that you want to rip out all of your drawers out of your dresser?
Well, right now I'm furiously shaking. My life can never go right. School just started, and I feel like smashing a mirror over my head.
The past first few days have been the same. I wake up. I shower. I get yelled at for my messy room. I leave the house. Go to school. See Weston get off the bus. See Weston go and talk to Desiree, and then Brody. Comes over and briefly says hi, walks away.
Lunch time.
I go for a walk on the path outside of the school with Weston, Brody and Desiree. The boys will be boys, walking together joking together. I'm stuck with Desiree. We casually talk. Nothing deep. What is there to talk about? Do Brody and Weston expect us to be best friends now? How about no.
Desiree looks off into the distance, starring at the boys ahead of us. "Wow, we're dating idiots." She smiles, and shrugs. "At least Brody is cute though. I think he's better than Weston, no offence."
Offence fucking taken.
It's the time of the walk where I'm beside Weston, and Desiree is beside her Brody once again.
Weston and I are behind those two, and I stare at Brody's tall lean body next to Desiree's plump one. She used to have nice hair, but she chopped it off and dyed it red. How can she get him?
Weston and I talk about our relationship. It's the same stuff. But I like hearing it.
"I love you Kenna."
"You're so perfect."
"I think we'll be together after high school."
"We just connect."
The conversation dwells on, but it's different this time. He looks down at me, likes he almost going to kiss me. And he stops and grabs my hands. Instead, he embraces me in a tight warm hug. I can feel his body against mine, and it's nice. His whisper is sudden. "If you ever break up with me, I will ruin your life."
I feel so threatened. But I shrug it off. He loves me, he thinks I'm perfect. It doesn't mean anything. He just obviously doesn't want to lose me, right?
We get back to school, the day drags on. School ends. It's time for Weston to go on the bus. I say bye, but he rushes to go and see Desiree. Fuck. I hate her.
Tomorrow will be the same. I hate grade 10.
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