Neon Moon

F i v e

Song of the chapter
I love you- Billie Eilish

Natalie's POV

We were on the way back to David's house and the car ride was silent and all you could here was the quiet humming of "i love you" by Billie Eilish. This song is so good I love all the songs by her, she so talented with her music and she really likes to make it her own and that's why I love her.

I look out the window as I watch the cars go by and I just think to myself. Does David like me or am I just a 'sister' to him? I know that it's a stupid thing to worry about but I worry about everything and it's really hard sometimes because it can be the smallest things. Like if me and David were to date what happens if we break up? We would most likely stop being friends and I can't do that, I love David to much to do that. When you love somebody and they don't love you back, it's hard because you have to hold in that feeling that you have and love is a crazy thing, it drives people insane sometimes and as the feeling grows more and it gets harder and harder. You see they say that we're falling in love but they don't say that we are rising in to love and that's the crazy part. We always say that love can do a lot to people and that you should never feel so strong for someone because some people fall out of love and when that happens it's the end of that relationship with that person and maybe that's what people are afraid of. It's not the reason that the person you love doesn't love you back it's the fact that you won't have a friendship with that person anymore and not a lot of people realize that and that's why people think love is scary.

I start to feel my eyes to burn as I feel a warm tear drop run down my cheek. I can't be crying over him. Why do I have to feel this way for my best friend? I mean it could've been anyone and it's David. I start to feel more tears to fall down and now I'm full on crying and I'm trying to not let any sobs out so I don't make David look at me cause then I would have to tell him why I'm crying and that would end up to me telling him i like him. I hear David mumble something and me being the stupid bitch I am, I turned to look at him and he was already looking at me so he saw my tear stained face. "Omg Nat what's wrong" he says in a caring voice as he lets his Tesla drive itself. "Not-nothing" I say turning back to the window. I feel his hand on my shoulder and I shiver at his touch. "Nat please just tell me" he say quietly, almost to the point where I couldn't here him. "No" I say shrugging his hand off my shoulder. I look back over to see him focused on the road, with sad eyes. I begin to feel bad as I realize he just wanted to make his best friend feel better. I then see his eyes get glossier and I see a single tear run down his face.

No!

No, I didn't want to make my best friend cry.

Fuck!

And that's when the lyric, that basically describes my life came on "i love you but I don't want to".

David's POV

Yes I'm crying cause my best friend won't tell me what's wrong and I know it sounds a little dramatic but I just want to help her. We tell each other everything and now all of a sudden she won't even talk to me.

We get out the car and it's silent and its usually comfortable but tonight it's the total opposite. We both walk in the door and we head to our rooms and we don't even say good night! I walk over to the side of my bed and I plug my phone in and i plopped down on the bed and just stared at the ceiling.

It's now 2:37am and I'm still staring at the ceiling. "Fuck" I mumble quietly to myself. I'm can't fall asleep because my friend didn't say good night to me, how pathetic. I then hear little footsteps coming towards my door, I quickly closed my eyes and acted like I was asleep. My door opens and I hear Natalie sigh. "David?" She whispers, seeing if I'm awake. I stay 'sleeping' and I hear her get closer to my bed, she then sits down on the edge. "Uh if only I could tell him" I hear her sigh out. What does she need to tell me?! "Good night" was all she said as she walked back out of my room, "Good night" I say back as soon as the door shuts. I turn around on my side and look towards my window and I fell asleep.

Natalie's POV

I wake up to the sun beaming through my window. I sit up and see my bags all packed on the ground. I get out of bed and get dressed for the day, I grab my bags and I go to the kitchen to make me some coffee. As I'm grabbing a cup from the cabinet I hear David's door open, and out comes a sleepy David. "Good mo-" he says cutting himself off as he looks down to my bags. I give him a little, sad, smirk and continue to make my coffee. "Where are yo-you going?!" He asks stuttering "well I'm going back home, I've helped you enough to where you smile, I've done my job" I say forcing a smile on my face. As much as I wanted to go home I didn't want to leave David. I mean I love him and I don't want to go back home, just to hear from him in another 5 years.

I start to feel my eyes burn as i realize my coffee is done, so I turn around, wipe my eyes and grab my coffee. "Wh-what no please don't leave m-me" he says as I see his eyes get watery. Please don't cry because if you do i will start balling. "Davey i lo-love you, remember that for me ok?" I say putting my coffee down and walking closer to him. "What! No na-nat you can-can't do this ple-please" he says with tears streaming down his face. "I'm sor-sorry David" I say as I feel tears run down my cheek. "Please ju-just one m-more day" he says hugging me "David i-" I begin to speak but he cuts me off. "J-just one more?" He says letting go of me and looking me in the eyes. I can tell he's searching for something, something in my eyes that's going to tell him why I'm leaving or he searching for something that's going to tell him that I'll stay. "Dav-" i say but he cuts me off again "please" he says grabbing my hands. "O-ok" I say stuttering at his touch. "Thank you" he says as he pulls me in for another hug. He grabs my stuff and puts it back in the room I'm staying in and I can't help but smile as he excitedly skips back to the room.

Maybe he does like me back?

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