Roar (Adamtina|Adam Levine & Christina Aguilera)

Chapter 23. Try

(Christina's POV)

"What's wrong Adam?" I asked once he slammed on the breaks and started freaking out."Matthew, Rutler...is his last name, isn't it?"

"Yeah, it's that Matt...but I thought he'd be fine, because he lost his memories...so I thought there wasn't anyway that he'd still try to harm us, and the island is destroyed so behati and him couldn't try anything."

"Christina, why didn't you tell me this before?" He asked, turning towards me and staring straight into my eyes, I tried to look away but I couldn't, I said.

"Well...Because I knew you'd freak out if you found out he was still alive, and i knew you'd find out eventually, then you wouldn't want to tour or anything ever again, so I thought maybe...if you met him you'd see he had changed, I guess...I was wrong and he still likes me, probably even more now because he doesn't remember meeting me the first time, I didn't want to tell you because I don't want you to worry."

I explained truthfully, regretting taking him out with Matt, Adam looked away from me, now he was really mad at me, I wanted to say something but...I couldn't think of what to say.

I waited for him to reply, but he never did, all he started the car again and drive home, I sighed once we returned home, he sat in the car. "Sorry, Adam." I said not knowing what else to say.

He didn't even look at me. "Im leaving." he said, before I left the car...My heart stopped, but went back inside before he could see me cry, I shut the door then I heard the car start and he drove off, I felt like crying at that moment but then my mom saw me.

"What's wrong hun? Did something happen?" She asked walking over to me giving me a hug, I tried to fight back tears and said."Nothing, I'm fine."

"You can't lie to me, I know when something is wrong, just sit down and tell me all about it." She said walking with me over to the couch, I started to cry on her shoulders while she tried to relax me."Don't worry everything will be alright, relax, what did they say?"

"N-nothing, Adam stopped talking to me...well there's this guy named Matt, who almost killed us ," I started to explain in a rough sloppy voice, I relized how ridiculous it started off, so I skipped the story and said.

"Adam's leaving me, he said so himself."

I said now sobbing my eyes out, in my life I've never cried so hard, I felt like he was just going to leave me forever, he didn't even say goodbye, I've never seen him so angry at me before, I was afraid to lose him.

I remember the moment we kissed, I knew it was right to love you him with all of my heart, and the hopes that we shared, the dreams that we had...the memories we've made of the joy and the pain, love...is that no longer enough? So he just leaves me? the man that I love...

"Does he want to be free? Am I holding him back?..I hoped he was happy in all that he does, I gave him my all, when in love I fell." I cried, But now is it all over? Was all of this for nothing?...

"Christina, you're over thinking this, he loves you, it's obvious, he kept talking about you the whole time, it's clear he could never stop loving you, but... They say, if you love something let it go, If it comes back...it's yours, and that's how you know, It's for keeps, it's for sure."

she said, but I cut her off, half sobbing, half laughing."Mom those are lyrics from my own song!" I laughed, she laughed along with me.

"I know! but they're true, look Christina I know you two will be together for a long time, and those times...they won't always be that easy, their will be days where you two are head over heels in love with each other, and days where you'll hate each other and never want to talk again, The love will come and go, but always remain in your hearts, as long as you push through it you'll always be together, if his love it true, then he'll come back....and if he doesn't, then I still love you, so does Max, and family will always be there."

She said, I slowly stopped crying, and nodded knowing she was right, when times seem too hard, and I feel like giving up I always had my mom, she had a twinkle in her eyes and always made me feel safe and loved.

The bond we created from the beginning, going through a lot with her when I was younger, with my father, she was always so strong, she was the best mom anyone could ask for, I want to be like her, I never understood how she always knew the right things to say.

"I want you to be proud of who you are and strive to be the best you can be, Put forth efforts to achieve your goals, I will always be your mother, you'll always be my little girl, but I'm also your friend, You are the most precious gift, that I've ever been given."

She said gently kissing me on my forehead, I felt like I was a little girl again going to my mother for advice when I needed her, she comforted me, she's my mom, and I love her with all my heart, if I had no one, I'd always have her.

And then killing the moment was her phone going off, I hugged her tight one last time before I let go."Thank you mom, love you so much." I said, she smiled. "Love you more."

Then she picked up the phone, she was silent and listening deeply into the phone, then she looked at me and smiled, but she was trying to hide her smile, what was she up to? Did she know something I didn't? Then she hung up.

"Someone is coming for you, it's important, you better clean yourself up and then wait outside." She said, hurrying me off into my room to get ready, so I did what she said and fixed my makeup, and hair, then she wanted me to wait outside... so I did, it was already getting dark so the porch lights turned on, what's going on?

Then Adams car pulled into the drive way and my heart started to flutter, he got out of his car and walked over to me with a rose in his hand, and something behind his back. I was so happy to see him again! I ran to him and gave him a hug.

"Adam, I'm so sorry, I should have told you, but I just don't want to lose you, please,"-He cut me off by kissing me. "I'm the one who should apologize, I shouldn't have left you like that, but I have to tell you something."

He said, looking deeply into my eyes, I was worried it was bad news, but then he got down on one knee and he nervously said.

"Well... I had this whole speech plained out, I wrote this poem...and everything...but it did really work,"He said taking a note out of his pocket he read. "Roses are red, violets are blue," He awkwardly came to a stop, he ran his hand through his hair, then threw the poem to the side and said.

"I'm uncreative, sad, but it's true. I'm not a guy given poetry talent and you're not a girl who likes it either...I've never been able to master a verse and you've always preferred me to be rather terse. The moment I seem to be on to a roll, I write something that's not appealing at all. So though I can't string two rhymes together, I love you, and I want to love you forever... In my heart I see you, You're the girl of my dreams, Sometimes I wonder if Im the right person for you, but ill try to keep my promise when I say, I will try to never let you down, I will try not to ever make you cry....but it seems I've failed at that,"

He said whipping a tear away from my cheek, he added. "I will always be truthful to you, ill sing a lullaby at night as you fall asleep while I hold you tight in my arms, no matter what I will always be there for you, I will take care of you, ill do my best help you up when you fall, I will treasure you for all times, You're my heart, You're my soul, my feelings for you will never let go, we've shared so many memories together, and I want to create more, so will you marry me? I will always love you."

I was in tears, that was the most beautiful thing I've ever heard, My heart was racing, he really loved me, he came back, I loved him more then anything in the world and wanted to be with him forever... that's why it was so hard for me to say what I said next.

"Adam, I love you so much, I want to create more memories with you too and be together forever, but, Im sorry...I can't marry you, not yet."