Virus - A Zombie Novel

October 2nd 2014

I awake at around 8:00pm as I feel the RV come to a stop, it must be food time. We ran out of gas within the first 2 days so now we make fires and cook on that. We would get more gas but we can find any. I go down stairs to an empty RV, all except Grey, who is asleep on one of the single beds.

"Hey!" I shout. He raises his arms in self defence, then realises it's only me. He rubs his eyes before opening them and squinting at me.

"What?" he groans.

"You can't run away." I said.

"Watch me." he said going to stand up but I pushed him back down.

"Sit down and shut up." I said. He rolled his eyes.

"It always ends up this way. You causing a fight." He mumbles.

"I said shut up." I repeated. That hurt. "You don't get to talk to me like that. Not you, not Lincoln, not anybody. Just because I still love you doesn't mean you can treat me with no respect. I have never hated myself as much as I do now and I don't know why." I said looking away from him. "Can I tell you I haven't slept very well since the last time we spoke? I didn't sleep at all last night. I felt like I was finally over you, but I found myself crying until I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore... Crying because I couldn't stop thinking about you. That's when I knew I wasn't, even though the things you've said to me in the past 24 hours made me feel like absolute shit and that I don't deserve to breathe, I still love you. Which disgusts me. I can't stand feeling this way for someone who has disrespected me to this extent." I said.

"But -"

"You don't get to talk." I interrupted. "Being with you is unhealthy. This relationship is unhealthy. I don't care what you feel towards Abby - I don't care."

"What are you trying to say?" he said.

"This isn't working, some people aren't meant to be together." I said biting my lip.

"Are we breaking up?" he asked. I looked him in the eyes, and nodded.

"I don't know what else to do." I whispered.

"Why are you doing this then?" he asked.

"It's called a break up because it's broken," I said feeling my chest get heavy, "Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see things clearly." I mumbled.

"So I distanced myself from you and now that's it. We're done?" he asked. I nodded.

"You did this. Don't blame me." I said beginning to walk away.

"I might be unsure whether I love you - but I'm sure that I don't want this to change." He said.

"Love doesn't change, people do. Circumstances do." I said walking off to join everyone outside.

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After eating we walk back inside and Abby instantly sits next to a glum Grey.

"Hey." I hear her say.

"I - I can't talk right now." He says looking over to me. I look away, pretending not to be watching them.

"Oh - okay." She says.

"I'm guessing you ended things." Willow said sneaking up behind me.

"I had to." I whispered. She put her hand on my shoulder and sighed.

"You'll be okay."

"Are you sure?" I questioned her looking back over to Grey who had begun to walk away from Abby.

"I'm not sure, but you'll make it. You're strong." She said. I looked at her and smiled slightly, I wasn't that confident.