Second Love (BenEarth)

Time and space

I can't find him, well i have no idea where to find him. His car is still on the dorm's parking lot.

Maybe he did not went that far.

I am so pre occupied in my mind. How to tell about me changing the room. How explain him everything that i have in me. How to asure him, part of me dont want to loose him, part of me wants to drop this dating thing.

Even i cannot understand myself.

"Earth" Chen tapped on my shoulder.

I looked at him and he is not alone. Pavel and Nine are with him.

"We where calling for you but you did not hear us. Ben was looking for you. He called all of us. Dome is with him. Come on." Pavel said. I looked around.

"I want ice cream" i said.
I still have my head ache a bit. Maybe because of it, and because of thinking too hard. I did not realized my friends are calling for me.

"I get it" Chen said and went in Nome's place. What i walked from dorm to here? This is a bit far.

Chen came back with a bucket of ice cream. I did not even realize Nine was gone to get his car.
Nine is driving Chen is with him, and iam with Pavel in the back i am holding the bucket of cold ice cream. We headed to Dome's room.

I mouthed sorry to Dome. He just nooded at me and pointed Ben with his lips. Ben is silent just sitting on the couch. Chen get the ice cream from me.

I sit beside Ben.
"I am sorry."
Ben gave me my phone.
"Don't ever leave without this." He said in soft voice.

I get my phone from his hand he catched me hand and pulled me into a hug.
"You made me worried." He wisphered then he let gp.
"I'm sorry i said."
He gave a thin smile.

Witt that the room became noisy, it was like their cue to get wild.

"After the ice cream party, i want you all out of my room. I am sleepy" Dome said.

I shook my head and smiked,.

"Your favorite." Chen said. And gave me and Ben a small bowl of ice cream each.

Dome did not scold me, he knows i will be back before the sun sets. But i know when i get back i the room i will be punished.
Why am i excited and anticipating it?

Shocks.

I shake off the idea put my head and went back on the topic.

"Earth make sure you drink lots of water." Dome said and i nooded.

I ate almost half of the ice cream, and they all let me, Ben protested.  I pleaded, then he said no ice cream for the rest of the week.

All four eyes set on me. I sighed and agreed.
I am not sure if they are with Ben, or they are just nosy to have something to tease me later. Or have something to balckmail me later.

Literally we are sent out of Dome's room.

Ben sits on his bed. Facing me. I looked up. I was arranging my things and my laundry from last night sleep over.

I need to talk to him. I sit on my bed facing him.
"We need to talk i said."

"Aren't we?"
He sounds cold.

I deep breathed.

"I am sorry i made you worry." I looked at him in his brown beautiful eyes. 
"I was contemplating on things."

Still his expression did not cahnged

"I went out,  the original plan was to look for you, but if i see you i have no idea what to say, then iam lost in  my thoughts. And did not realized i walked too far."
Still he is on his bored mode. Emotionless face.

" i promised you something didn't i?" I tried to change the subject.
"How was it?" I asked.

"It was smooth, i let him talk, i took in everything he says, and i realized. He has changed." His expression changed and there is sparkle in his eyes.
"We forgave each other."  He smiles.

I am so happy for them. Well it paid off. But how can i break it to him.

I stood from my bed and walked directly to him. I leaned on his face and pecked on his lips.
He just looked at me. I moved closer and kissed him, he welcomed my kiss and he leads on. Devouring me. Untill we both cannot breath.

Then i pushed him. And i stepped back.

"I need to tell you something."

He looks nervous.

"I need to move out."

Now he looks devastayed.

"Is this a joke Earth?" He asked me and pulled me closer to him he still sitting on his bed.

"Babe, listen." He looked me in my eyes as i said babe. I mean it i love him.

"I need to stay away from you. If not it will hurt us even more."
He looked at the floor but hands still on mine.

I pulled his hands to wrap aronud my waist. Then i cupped his face witb my hands.
"Babe, please listen" i said in gentle voice.
" i love you. And i am giving us a chance. But i need space and time. Not wanting you to go away. We will still see each other every lunch. And we would have dates. We can go home together week ends. But babe please. I need this."
I said as gentle as i can.

He smiled.

"If you can find a room where you will be alone. But if it is occupied no way babe, your staying with me."

I sit on his lap. Shit are we boyfriends now. I told him ilove him, and i called him babe. But it makes him listen. Now sitting on his lap!

He leaned his forehead on mine. Then brushed our nose.

"I love you my boyfriend."

"What no" i said,

"You called me babe and you said you love me." He kissed my cheeks.

I pushed him. He just laughed but holding me tight.
"I said it before, i am not gonna let you go."
Then he pulled me and pinned me on his bed. I do not know how but he hovered over me.
Giving me peck all over my face.

Shocks this, i am wanting for more. I want his deep kiss on my lips, i want him devour me. I want him touch me.
This is bad for me. I want him.

He looked at me staring at my face.  I feel akward and shy.

He smiled.
"Babe," he said in soft voice.

Shit i am doomed, why is he not kissing me. He is just teasing me. I long for him and i want to feel his body close to mine. His hands on me, his touch, his embrace. His tongue and lips on me i want it all.

I am so doomed. He get up and protested. I breathed hard while laying on his bed. I am looking at the cielling trying to calm my lust down. Watching porn late at night shit. I have to have a shower.

I get up and i stand i saw him sitting on my bed. Is he watching me. I suddenly felt hot on my cheeks.

Am i busted.

"I think i know why you wanna get away form me."

Shocks and double sh**s!! BUSTED.

"You want revenge."

I looked at him with question look. I rolled my eyes and smiled.
"No!" I moved to him and kissed him i think i reallly need to tell him.

"I love you and i want to make sure it is love not lust." I said.

He looked at me. He pulled me closer and devoured me his hands roam in back, i didnot protest. We kissed with lust. And shit i am having a boner. He pushed me i protested. But he sat sit on my bed. Wow i am half naked and laying on my bed.

"We need to cool down" he said.  And walked out of the room.

I run to the bathroom to fix myself.