The Club of Lies (Happy Lowman)

Why now

"Why now. Of all the times what are you choosing to leave now?" Happy was yelling at me because I had decided it was time to get out of Charming once and for all.
"Because it's the best time to leave. A reason to leave is so I'm actually safe. And don't give me that shit like you're safe here with me. Because Incase you forgot they broke into the house and tried to kill me. I'm leaving and you or anyone else will stop me." I said while still packing
"I can keep you safe Violet just stay and let me prove it to you. I won't let anything happen to you just don't leave I'm asking you and I don't ask people."
"No I'm sorry Happy but I'm leaving." I had finished packing and walked out of the room and to the front door. This is it I'm finally free I'm finally leaving.
"Violet please." Happy was still trying to talk me out of leaving. Did he really just say please, does he care about me that much.
"No im sorry but I'm don't being the Mother Charter Princess." With that I walked outside and to my car. He'll probably call the guy but I don't care I'm out permanently nothing can stop me. I was pulled out of my thought to my phone ringing, Jax, was across the screen. Should I answer maybe it's to say goodbye and to be safe. I was passing the hospital when I answered.
"Violet, meet me at the hospital Wendy overdoses and Able isn't probably gonna make it." He sounded like he was crying. Great there goes my out.
"Okay I'll be right there." With in a few minutes I was at hospital.
"Violet that was fast."
"Oh I was on my way to the store when you called."
"Jax is Able ok......" Happy asked as he saw me.
"Jax he has a hole in his heart and his insides are turned. The doctor wants to get the insides fixed and then when he's stable enough we'll fix his heart."
"Tara what's the odd that he'll live." I asked
"Doc gives it 20% chance." I dropped  but Happy was there to catch me.
"Violet you okay?"
"Yeah just a little lightheaded." I said standing up and walking to a couch to sit for a minute. Happy decided to drive me back home.
"So you're stay now?"
"Tell Abel's our of the hospital and then I'm out. Happy I need out before I have to watch someone I love get killed. I can't sit around and do this every time you and the guys go on a run I sit in the dark and wonder what do I do if you or the guys don't come back. I can't live like that Hap I just can't. And now with Able I can't think of losing Jax and who would take Able because Wendy ain't fit to be a mother and I can't take a kid and mom sure as shit ain't gonna be good for him."
"Violet you don't have to worry about that stuff."
"Happy I do have to because before you came your spot belonged to a guy named Vince and he was killed on a run. Before my father John was killed. And yes he was my father I don't care if it wasn't biological but he's the closest thing I had to a father. Happy I can't lose someone else."
"Violet you lose us all when you leave."
"No I lose contact yes but I don't have to be there for your funeral I don't have to see your dead face when they bring you to the clubhouse for a service. If you care about me at all you'd understand how much that would kill to have to do. I can't lose another one of you guys like that I don't have that much more I can take before I fallow John. And I know you know I will." I walked to my room not wanting to continue.
The next day I woke up to a note on my nightstand from Happy telling me the club had a run and he'd be home tonight. I got up and walked out to my car and got in a drive to work with mom. "Mom how do you do it?"
"Do what honey?"
"How do you keep calm when they go on the runs and could come back in a body bag?"
"Because I know the guys know what they're doing. Why do you ask?"
"Because yesterday why I got to the hospital so fast was because I was on my way out of Charming and when Happy took me home all the truth came out about me not wanting to lose another member and how I could go through it again."
"Honey you can't leave yet with Able in the hospital we need to get Jax's house cleaned up and ready for him to come home."
"Mom I'm not leaving tell he gets out but the day he does I'm out no if and or but's I'm completely gone."
"Okay honey." We finished and went and started cleaning Jax's house.
*three days later*
We were done with Jax's house and I was still packing. When Happy came home from his run. He was hiding something from me he was acting like he was fine but I could tell something was wrong. "Happy what are you hiding from me now?"
"Nothing I'm fine."
"I didn't ask if you were fine."
"Well I am."
"Prove it take off your shirt and show me."
"I don't have to prove shit to you." With that I had him down by surprise and lifted his shirt to show a bad cut from the bottom of his rib cage to his hip. "That's not okay Happy." I said getting off of him and getting my first aid kit to stitch him up.
"Why are you so concerned you'll be leaving soon so why do you care if I live or day."
"Because jackass I love you" shit that just slipped out maybe he didn't hear it or maybe he didn't understand what I said.
"You love me" He was laughing "if you loved me you would be leaving me, you wouldn't be pushing me away."
"I guess you're right maybe I'll just let you die and then I'll have a reason to leave." I said getting off of him not a single stitch on his cut and walked to my room and slammed the door.
"See you don't even care enough to stitch me up." I laughed
"You didn't even want me to know you had the cut I'm just letting you have your wish." I heard him trying to get up and then I heard him lose his footing or grip and drop.
"Shit." I walked out and he was on the ground with the coffee table on his arm. I walked over and took it off him and sat on his chest so I could stitch him up he went to say something. I started stitching and he started cussing at me because I didn't give him a warning.
"Maybe you shouldn't have been an asshole earlier. And I would have been nicer to you." I moved down and now I was basically straddling him and I was finishing the stitches.
When he said "If I wasn't hurt and if I liked you we'd be undressed by now."
"Like is ever do you."
"You're the one who said you loved me."
"Yeah as a family member nothing more."
"Sure." I finished and went to get off him only for him to grab my face and pull me down closer to him our lips only an inch away from each other. He kept pulling me closer but I didn't care I wanted this if never admit it but I wanted him since day one. His lips lightly touched mine and my eyes went to close. He pulled away laughing and pushed me off him "see I told you wanted me more then family or you would have stopped me."
"Jackass." I said standing up and went to walk out "You know you're the reason I'm really leaving. All that bullshit about not being able to take it if one of you guys died was bullshit. I'm leaving because I want as far away from you as I can get because you're nothing but a useless killer. Maybe one day you'll find someone who's just as useless as you. Maybe it'll be Ima." With that I walked to my room. I got dressed because it was the day Able came home. I didn't mean anything I said to Happy but I was pissed and I needed to hurt him as bad as he had hurt me. We all got to the coming home party for Able and we were heading home and I saw Tig getting into a black SUV fallowing Opies truck but Donna was driving. I was fallowing and then gun shots from Tig to Opies truck. I called the cops as Tig drove away. I then called the guys. I was out of the car and running to Donna. I hadn't realized I was crying. Hale was the first on the scene and I was crying so hard I couldn't talk. They got her out of the truck right as the guys showed up and Opie came soon after. I was crying so hard and when I saw Tig I almost lost it. Tig acted as if I didn't exist to him at the moment. I saw Happy and I couldn't fight the feeling I ended up running to him crying way to hard for someone to stop it now. It's was completely silent other then the cop sirens and them talking.
"Violet are you okay? Did you see who did it?" I nodded my head yes to both of them and he's like guys I'm gonna drive Violet home I'll be back tell me what you find out."
"Actually I think you should stay here I'll driver her home and I'll need a ride back to my bike." Tig said as fast as Happy had finished.
"Okay that's probably best I'll help with Opie." I tried to say no but it wouldn't come out. And soon Tig had walked me to my car and put me in the passenger seat and he climbed into the drivers seat. It was quiet for a while tell I broke the silence.
"You gonna kill me now?"
"No why would I kill you sweets."
"Because I know it was you who killed Do......"
"You'll stay quiet about that or Clay will have someone kill you and make it seem like someone else did it."
"You can't buy my silence."
"Yes I can." And he pulled his gun out. "It kills me to say this but if you talk rats get killed remember that." I stayed quiet. "Good now we agree you don't rat I don't tell Clay you know." His hand went to my knee and I quickly moved it. "You act like you don't like me." He said as we pulled into the drive way
"I don't You're like an uncle to me and that's all I'll ever feel for you other then now. Now you're nothing to me but the guy who killed Donna." I said as I got out of the car and slammed the door running into the house as he got out to come after me. I got in and locked the door and then I ran to Happy's room and hid under the clothes in the closet. I heard the door unlock.
"Come out Violet I'm not gonna hurt you." After awhile of looking he left or at least I thought he had left. I hadn't left the hiding spot but I had heard a bike pull up and yell for him and then I heard them leave. But I wasn't gonna chance it because if he's capable to kill Donna he'd kill me without a care in the word. Soon I heard Happy yelling my name.
"Violet where are you? Violet."
I walked out of his room still scared that Tig would be out there. "Happy." I didn't care I ran to him and raped my arms around him. I'm safe I'm safe in his arms. I hadn't noticed but I had my head in his neck as I was crying. "Happy?"
"Yeah Violet."
"Can I... Can I sleep in your room tonight?"
"Yeah let's get some sleep." With that he picked me up and my legs went around his hips. I felt my back hit his bed. And he was on top of me for a couple minutes and soon he went to get off of me. When he went to my arms didn't leave his neck. So he turned me on my side and we laid there like that the rest of the night. He's just being nice right he told me I meant nothing to him earlier he's just trying to be nice now. With that last thought I was asleep.