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platonic.
you hated that word so much.
you knew you and jungwoo had that platonic friendship. you and him act like a couple. you both require a lot of skinship with eachother, sweet words, a lot of warm hugs and most things couples do but..
what jungwoo felt was all platonic. he never felt butterflies in his stomach, he never really had feelings for you. he thought 'oh, we're just friends. this is normal.'
but you, you were different. whenever you were with him, you'd go all blushy and red. suddenly having butterflies in your stomach. you really liked him. is four years enough? how many more days till he notices that i see him more than just that?
"y/n!!! come here, let me feed you some gimbap. i made it for you." jungwoo smiled ear to ear. you loved that smile, it was so precious to you but it's for the best to just avoid him. treat him like a friend. an actual friend. he gives me all kinds of sorts and i love that but it hurts to know that it's all platonic.
"no thanks, im fine. i brought my own food." you chuckled. "oh?..well then, ill just give it to jaehyun." he tilted his head, feeding the gimbap to the older infront of us.
after finishing, you walked away. it hurts doing this but why would he care?
"y/n! wait for me!"
don't look back. keep walking.
"y/n!! stop avoiding me will you?!" he yelled
don't listen to him. don't let him affect you.
you stopped in your tracks.
no. y/n don't.
"s-sorry! i forgot we had our classes together." you laughed it off. "nah it's fine." he grinned, holding your hand softly. "um..jungwoo?" you asked. he nodded in return. "c-can you not? i don't want people to mistake us as a couple." you reassured. jungwoo was taken aback.
"no."
"wh—"
"i want to hold your hand. it makes me feel better." he said, continuing to intertwine your hands with his. this made your heart flutter everytime. you can't help but swoon over him. you're totally head over heels.
you both walked each other to class while talking about a recent drama you both watched together. you loved these moments with him. moments you can cherish are the best.
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months passed by and you completely forgot about the topic. you both were closer than ever. your feelings still remained the same and you were gonna confess to him.
"haechan..s-should i confess to him?" you asked. "i don't know. should you?" he contemplated. you sighed "you're not helping at all."
"whatever, go get him." haechan winked before walking away.
go get him? ..yeah y/n go get him. you ran to your classroom before recess ended and sat on your seat. "jungwoo?" you asked "yeah?" he replied. "can i tell you something after school? we're walking home together anyways" you reassured. "about that, let's stop acting like this. im walking home with suhee after school." he looked away. "suhee?.."
"my girlfriend. she confessed to me two weeks ago."
your heart stopped. two weeks ago? why has he been keeping this..a secret from me?
"why did you have to hide it?.."
"it was a secret. i can't let anyone know." he scoffed. "so you practically don't trust me?" you lifted your brow. "what? stop being so sensitive." he glared.
your eyes grew wide. you looked away from his face, trying to not let your tears fall. it's been 5 years you stupid idiot. you shouldn't have fell in love with him. again. "anyway about the after school thing, make it quick. don't waste my time." he said, not sparing a single glance.
you quickly wiped away a tear. you were about to confess..now this? your hands trembled, you couldn't take it anymore. ah this is so cliché.
you rose your hand and asked permission to go to the toilet. there you were. crying in one of the bathroom stalls. you told yourself that this was cliché as hell and that you'd never do this once having a crush reject you or something related to that topic but here you are. crying. sobbing so ugly.
the bell rang and you ran outside looking like an absolute mess. that was the last subject anyways. you were completely aware you skipped class but do you care? no. you took your bag and went to the area you asked to meet jungwoo. you were late but..do you even care?..
"what took you so long?"
"i don't know, maybe that attitude of yours made me contemplate whether or not i wanted to come here." you snapped.
"make it quick." he rolled his eyes.
"i liked you." you said.
"liked. it's past tense." you chuckled at his response. "i-i know." he added. what?..
"you knew this..whole time?" you softened. "i-im sorry..i didn't—"
"was i just a cheap toy to you? did you use me to comfort yourself?" tears were threatened to fall. "no! listen to me y/n. i..i didn't want to break your heart. i..i liked you too. i just thought..i just..i just thought it was all platonic. you looked like you didn't feel anything." as he held your hand.
"funny how i thought the same fucking thing." as you pulled your hand away. "what're you gonna do? break up with suhee? and get with me? yeah no. you've lost all my trust for you." you yelled, tears falling down your face. jungwoo cried along with you. "can't you just give a second chance?" he trembled.
"should i give it to someone who wasted all my time? only for me to fucking realise at the wrong time?...you kept me waiting for 5 years and you'd expect me to wait again? you can't just break up with suhee. you know how much she loves you..right?" you looked away.
"y/n i..."
"im sorry jungwoo. guess our friendship ends here." you gave him one last smile, leaving him.
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this doesn't make any sense but here!! an imagine for u gais
