//WARNING: this one is long l0l//
//y/n has a happy ending//
was i only a tool?
a tool for you, to get close to her?
if only you genuinely cared for me.
but you didn't.
y/n's
as i walk down the isle, i see my beloved significant other. well, you were..until you met her.
i wanted you to be happy, and well..it worked but shouldn't i have been a little selfish? shouldn't i just have him for a little while even though he doesn't love me? i regret dating you, park jisung. you truly didn't love me.
i still miss his soft voice, warm hands and his kisses. they were everything to me. i loved him so much, but he didn't. he only used me to get close to her.
everytime i walk by, i see you talking to her, smiling wide, kissing her and hugging her. all of those were what you used to do to me and i returned it back but it was just a waste because you gave it all to her.
i can see why he went for her though, her beautiful eyes, soft hair and puffy lips. those were what you wanted in a girl. her goddess-like features didn't match mine at all. my puffy eyes, hard hair and dry lips. sometimes i feel like life isn't enough, there are times that i want to kill myself.
although they always say "there's so many more fish in the sea!", that's impossible. sometimes when you catch a fish, it's impossible to catch a fish that's rare. jisung was that type of fish, but i let him go. my grip wasn't strong enough to hold you tight.
you said you loved me and you said that you would never leave me, was that all just a lie?..well it obviously is. considering you used me for her.
im lonely these days, i cry myself to sleep every night thinking of you but you never thought of me. can't you imagine how hard it is to be used? heartbroken? well you didn't, because you never cared.
i knew you were going to her though, you loved her so much. you even told me so 'accidentally'. it was obvious.
i waited near the bus stop, where we would always chat and laugh together. but i only look left to see you and her doing what we did.
i looked down, knowing that you wouldn't recognise me. a tear streamed down my face and i rapidly wiped it off. not at a time like this.
as the bus car close i heard footsteps behind me. "y/n!" the person yelled, hugging my back. "chenle?"
he nodded in response. "i haven't seen you for so long!" i quickly hugged him, chenle was my first childhood friend. best friend to be exact. i liked him alot since he was the nicest and he would always be there for me until we had to go separate schools. "you're moving to my school??"
"well duh! can't i see my best friend?" he chuckled. "yeah, yeah." i laughed it off. i looked left and saw jisung staring. was he jealous-
"y/n! the bus!"
"h-huh?-"
chenle dragged me along to the bus and sat down next to me. "how's life?" he asked "good." lies.
"y'know i like this one girl, she's from our school." he smiled, his face completely red.
"oooh, who?" i smiled through the pain, I thought i had a chance to make myself happy.
"ill tell you near the blossom tree."
"but isn't that where people confess?" i wondered, confused.
"it's the perfect moment to tell my crush." he smiled and stared deeply at my eyes.
"if you say so." i lifted my left brow and chuckled.
jisung's
maybe i shouldn't have let her go, she was perfect. why do i have to be so dumb?..now a transfer student is taking her away from me. should i break up with yeonmi? but..i love her, yet i love y/n too. what do i do?..
i think he's planning on confessing, should i talk to her before it's too late?
y/n's
"were here!" chenle smiled, holding my hand. he held it softly unlike jisung. jisung never held my hand.
after i got off the bus, i felt a tap on my shoulder. i turn to see-
oh.
"i want to talk to you, y/n."
"chenle, i'll be back."
"alright!" he said running off
i sighed, i looked up at him and nodded. he then held my hand, the same way chenle held it and dragged me.
"i still love you." he bit his lower lip, looking down.
"but you love her too right?" he nodded.
i sighed once again, "i thought you used me, now you want me back?" i chuckled. "you don't know how it felt like being used and heartbroken." i said, tears streaming down my face. "i always thought you loved me, but you're eyes were on someone else." he caressed my hand in tears.
"i thought i should've been a little selfish and kept you for myself for a while before letting you go but..i wanted you to be happy." i looked down.
"im sorry, what i did was wrong. i didn't mean to use you. i still love you. truly-"
"it's a lie isn't it? another lie to make me believe you truly love me, but you don't."
"before you leave, i just want to say..i loved you ever since you came in. i became the happiest person when you asked me out and that i felt happy and warm in you're arms. thank you for everything, jisung." i said while walking away, leaving jisung to cry.
around 11.30am, i finally walked to the blossom tree and saw chenle fiddling his fingers, with flowers in his hands.
i walked to towards him "so who is it?" i asked. "it's you, y/n." chenle smiled. "w-what?" maybe i did have a chance, with someone better than him. someone who won't use me. someone who won't leave me heartbroken.
after that, my lips met with his.
jisung didn't break up with yeonmi but his feelings were slowly fading away and those fading pieces are coming back to me.
