Amanda's murder a #dark Simanda story

Chapter 7:Telling everyone

Author's Note:

Hi Everyone.

Warning:

This chapter contains heavy emotional themes and is therefor not suited for underaged or  easily emotionally distressed readers.

I hope you'll all enjoy reading this chapter anyway.

End of Author's Note

Simon's POV:

Once I had sort of managed to cal myself down a bit, i came to the sudden realisation tha I ofcourse still had to tell everyone about what had happened ro my beautifull Mandy.

Firstly of all her parents and our kids had to know and then everyone at BGT and so on.

Although I knew i had to tell to everyone before the press would know abot it and would bring the news of Amanda's death out into the world, there was just something deep inside of me that just simply couldn't do it somehow.

It was a nagging feeling that somehow stopped my heart from doing what my mind knew that I eventually and enavidbly had and still have to do:

Telling everyone what happened.

 But how can I tell everyone what happened , if I even barely know and or fully realize what has happened?

Ofcourse I know what kind of matter of factly happened , but I actually I meant that I almost emotionally don't know what happened.

Everything from discovering Amanda's body up to sitting here in an operating theatre while i'm holding our newborn and prematurely born children, just seems to have flown by in sort of an unexplainable daze.

''Are you allright Si?'' My brother Tony gently asked me, probably in a kind attempt to quickly snap me out of my whirlwind of thoughts.

''The honest answer is that I don't know if i'm allright Tony and I don't know if i ever wil feel or be allright again'' I answered quietly before I quickly looked down once again at / to the two sleeping newborns in my arms.

''I think no one knows that for sure Si.'' mine and Tony's tyunger brother Nicolas whispered before he gave me a sympathtatic pat on my back.

I just hummed before I gulped as Nicholas words suddenly hit me right in my heart and in my guts.

''Sorry I shouldn't have said that.'' Nicholas mumbled kind of apollogetically before he wanted to leave te operating theatre but Tony for some reason suddenly stopped him in his tracks.

''It's allright Nick, we know you meant well.'' Tony half smiled before he pulled Nicholas into a giant bearhug and i just silently watched them hugging eachother.

''Tony's right Nick.'' I muttered, once Tony and Nick had stopped hugging eachother and they now just kind of sympathtetically looked at me.

''thank Si.'' Nicolas repied quietly before he briefly glanced at his Nathan and Nathalie an said:

Those two little ones are kind of a new chapter to Amanda's legacy Si.''