Życie me - czyli nic ciekawego

HAHAHA

Isn't it just funny!? Looking at your fucking family, happy together, while you are left alone, barely keeping this all shit together! And the best part is, they are mad at you 'cause you are NOT spending time with them! When you try to speak, they don't listen or don't let you speak. When you finally get to speak, they yell at you, 'cause of course there was something wrong with your voice! or just act like you hadn't said a fucking thing! When you do something good, they say that it could have been better. When you do something bad, they yell at you for 2 fucking hours. You are scared to say a fucking word, 'cause you know you won't take it anymore. You don't tell anything. Even about yourself (like someone would care about that), because you know they won't accept that. They say, they love you. They keep each other's sides, but when it comes to taking your side, there's no such thing. Because you are a failure, and this it their goal to remind you this every fucking day. They see how broken you are. But do they care? NO! Why should they! Why would anyone care about a failure that is barely making it! Yes! I'm a failure! An error! I shouldn't even be horned! Because of them, I lie every day, saying, that I Love them. That everything is great, while I'm ducking barely making it! I just don't want my friends to worry about me... because there's no such point in that....... it will keep happening, probably even after I will stop living with them... it won't end, until I or they die...

Haha... hahaha... HaHAHA.. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

THAT'S FUNNY
I'M MISERABLE! I'M A FUCKING FAILURE THAT CANT EVEN DO ONE THING RIGHT! WHAT WAS I THINKING? SHE WAS RIGHT ALL THE TIME. I'M NOTHING AND I WILL END AS NOTHING, WITH NOTHING.

She was right...

I'm a failure...

and I start to get used to it....