Cheater {LeviHan}

Chapter 1: Words

Levi's POV

"I do..." Those were the last words I heard from Hanji- to another man. That wedding night... was the worst day of my life- worse than anything else. My mother's death was one of the worse days- but none can overcome this one day. I watched her kiss and enjoy life with her new husband, and I stayed on the sidelines... for years. How it first started to break my heart? That's a story to tell. 

I remember it was this one night... where I was dating Hanji... and we were at a restaurant. Everything went well- despite a ring weighing down in my pocket. I was ready to propose to her that single night- when everything was perfect. But before I could even try to propose to her... her phone started to ring in this busy restaurant, her favorite place to go to. 

"Levi, I'm sorry, I have an emergency to attend to. Can you drop me off at home?" She says to be, and after we paid... I drove her home.

The emergency had to have Hanji at her house. Something about her parents being there. With caution, I walked her inside. We were both greeted with a surprise party- and Erwin was there. I remember he greeted me and thanked me for bring Hanji on this special night. I never told him I was gonna propose to her.

"Hanji, will you marry me?"

"...yes..."

That one day... that one night he proposed to her... was the night I was going to do the same. I never knew about Erwin liking Hanji as well... much less he was forcing her into this arranged marriage sort of thing.

His family owned a business, and he wanted Hanji as his wife. He proposed to her, and ruined my relationship with her. "Levi, I'm sorry..."

Those words- all those words haunted me forever. No one understood how hurt I was. With her apology, I knew she really meant what she said. She was sorry. If she had rejected it, her college debts would scorn her down and she would be forced to be poor. If Erwin was there, he could pay it all off and let Hanji live a life she deserved. Her dream coming to life compared to my suffering was a good trade. But still... Erwin dug those nails down.

Not only he married her- he made me his best man, so I can watch their marriage right before me. I watched Hanji from this woman to becoming pregnant and soon, having a child with Erwin. They even allowed me to take care of their child- which they lovingly named Eren. 

Just watching Hanji and Erwin being together... how envious I was. I should've been her husband- if he never proposed and held her by this thread... I would've been there. Their son.. it could've been mine- but it wasn't. When Eren was a baby... I thought of him as mine for the longest time. I could've been a father. Deep inside of me, I wept as I saw him. I wept for my life to be with Hanji- for she was always the love of my life. 

I could never have the life with her- and I knew it. I tried dating Petra, my co-worker, but it never worked out. A flame with Hanji was never as great as it was with Petra. I just suffered more and more into this deep abyss. How much heartache it would be to love another when I cannot love another like Hanji? She was my love... just swiped away.

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"Hey, Levi, can I talk to you for a second?" Erwin asks me on the phone. I simply picked it up and waited for the other person to speak to me. I hated to speak first.

I groaned heavily and rolled my eyes. "Fine. What?"

"How's it going at your job?"

"Normal."

He sighed even more, and I could just tell he wanted me to act more... normal. I couldn't help it. I had a miserable life- why should I be cheerful to the man that took away my lover? "Listen, there's this job opening up... and I want you there. Is that alright?"

"Depends."

"Well, just come by my HQ. Front desk will give you complete access to my office. Be there by 5 pm today."

"Fine."

"Oh, and Levi-" Thank goodness the sound of the phone hanging up was there- satisfied to hear the tone of silence and away from his annoying voice. I didn't want to do it... but, normal to me is just bad. I was going to suffer money-wise... so I had to accept it. 

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"Levi!" I growled gently as soon as he called my name and greeted me once more. "Man, it has been a few years."

He patted me on the back and I shook him off. "What do you mean? Last I saw your kid was last year. It wasn't a long time ago." I stared up at him, growling softly. "How is your family?"

"They've been fine- want to meet them? I tried to tell you that they were gonna be here, but you hung up on me. I bet Eren would be more than happy to see you again, Levi."

Hanji... Eren... all those terrible memories hitting me at once. My past lover, my supposedly son was there. All ruined because of him. Erwin Smith was the reason why I suffered for so long as I watched them love each other and have a life. 

"Come on, let's go!" I had no choice. My legs were lead, but Erwin practically pushed me towards his office. Through his glass walls, I saw those two. Hanji was there, holding a 4 year old baby in her arms. How motherly she acted towards him... "Hanji, look who actually came here."

"Eh?" Her eyes were glittering brightly when she saw me. Like earlier, they were dull. "Levi! Oh wow! Get over here! I need a hug from you!" Slowly, I followed in to get to her. 

"L-Levi!" Eren smiles and points his chubby finger at me. "Missed you!"

The idea of him actually being my son made a smile tug at my lips. How I thought of it... "Hey, Eren... Hanji..."

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We spent about an hour talking and talking about this job opening. In the end, I accepted it. After that long and boring talk, Erwin took Eren down to the car. They were going out on a fancy dinner tonight- excluding me. Hanji and I were slowly making our downstairs- just catching up on one another's life.

I hid my pain of missing her in my life. Just... I couldn't do it. Words were nothing to describe how much I missed it. How much I missed having her by my side. Words were nothing compared to my pain.

"Time to go..." I say as we got into the elevators. "Hanji..."

Once the doors closed on us and before the elevators even started to go down, she pushed against me and kissed me deeply on my lips. It's been years since I felt a kiss like that. It was sinful to kiss back... but I missed her so much. I kissed back and pushed against her. That single kiss lasted for a few seconds before she had to pull away from me.

Her slender fingers pushed her messy strains of hair out of her face and behind her ears. I could see a slight blush on her cheeks. "Hanji..."

"Don't tell that to him, please..." 

"Hanji-" The doors opened and she rushed out of the doors.

"I'm sorry..." She calls out to me as she ran. I watched her run... those final words... was she sorry for kissing me? Was she sorry because... she chose Erwin? Hanji... what did you mean by those two words?