The Curse of the Crystal Heart

Chapter 12: Why is he here?💔

Catalya

"The baby will be fine",Pearl said. ' A baby.'
Pearl was a doctor who worked at the local hospital. "I have heard of this before, so I was nervous to try it",Annabelle spoke. "You acted in the baby's interest. I can assure you that you took the right step",Pearl said. "I won't let you down ,Lya", Annabelle assured. Melody clapped her hands and then we were back in the room at the cabin. Joshua was standing there.' Oh my God, how am I going to explain all of this to him'.

"Where were you?!", he's furious. "It's okay. We're fine",I said. "Catalya you are covered in blood",he said stating the obvious.  "Lya, you have to tell him", Annabelle basically put me on the spot.

Why should I ? He hurt me so bad.

That's no excuse to hide the fact that he's going to be a father.

"Catalya",I stopped fighting myself when I heard Josh.  When our eyes met my heart started to pound in my chest. The pounding was so loud I was unable to think. It felt as though my heart was about to come out of my ears. "Annabelles pregnant!", I screamed under pressure.  "Really, wow", I swear he was staring at her belly for a whole five minutes. Immediately he forgot about the blood on our clothes. Melody looked at me with anger in her eyes. I will tell him, when he is ready. Or maybe when I am.

We got cleaned and then afterwards Joshua never let me out of his sight. Why is he here.

That evening the coughing got so worse that I battled to sleep. "Are you okay?",Joshua asked as he sat on the bed,facing me now. "I'm fine",I said crossed. "Coughing blood doesn't seem fine at all", he said taking my hand that I used to cover my mouth as I coughed.

He looked to the ground as though he had something on his mind. "I never got the chance to apologise", he said finally looking back at me." For what? You were right. It was best to end things before we got into deep",I say looking away from because I know it isn't true. It doesn't matter, I'm dying anyways. I don't have to tell him about the baby. I'm sure Annabelle would make a great mother. I know I'm selfish like that but everyone's better off like that. "The thing is I'm already in too deep", he says pulling my face towards him. "Heck I was in too deep the day I bumped into",he continued. "Joshua, you made it clear that night", I said as tears roll down my face. He leaned in to kiss me but I pushed him away. I got up ,put on bedslippers. "Where are you going?",he asked still sitting on the bed. "I want to be with Anna",I say heading for the door. He stops me by standing in front of the door blocking me. "Please,  it's just for tonight", I beg. "Promise me",he said moving slowly away from the door. He placed his hands around my waist pulling me closer to him as he repeats,"Promise me."

"I promise",I whispered. Then made my way to Annabelles room. I knocked then went in. "Anna",I whispered. "Hey",she greeted. I jumped on the bed, layed beside her and cried. "Let me guess,Joshua ",she said hugging me. I nodded. "How about to take your mind off from him we discuss baby names",she tried to cheer me up. I don't want to tell her that it will just make it worse. "I know it's your baby but for a girl I was thinking Aaliyah. Do you have any ideas for a boy?",I have to just go with it. She is so excited. I don't want to ruin her happiness like I ruined everything else. "I want him named after Leon", I sobbed. Annabelle started comforting me as I started wailing. I missed my brother.

The next morning Kristella woke us up with sad news. Zayn has passed away. "He has been in a terrible condition ever since the fight at the warehouse", Kristella sobbed. "There was nothing you could have done Krissi", Annabelle said trying to comfort her.
"We went outside the cabin to join the others. The boys were already busy burying. He was buried next to Bianca. Everyone said their goodbyes, except Joshua.

We all then went inside except Annabelle. She was staring at Bianca's grave. I went back outside to join her. "I never should have-", she started to cry. "Anna,it's not your fault", I comforted. "You don't understand Lya. My recklessness put everyone in danger and got Bianca and now Zayn killed", she cried. "They know what's in your heart. Stop beating yourself up",I said then left her alone.

I walked up to the bedroom to find Joshua sitting on the windowsill. He looked lost in his own world. "Don't you want to say goodbye? ",I asked in a calm tone. He gave no answer. He kept on looking out the window. I walked closer before he finally looked at me. His eyes were red. "Is it because of me?",he asks. He must blame himself for Zayns death. "Josh, he was severely injured. There -"

"I'm not talking about Zayn",he said getting off of the windowsill, practically striding towards me. "You're sick because of me", he said, gripping me by the shoulders. "That's rid-"

"Melody told me everything", he said. I froze, I knew what was going on but I just couldn't respond. It isn't his fault. I'm the one who fell in love. "She said there's nothing we can- but we can fix this. I know we can", he said not letting his eyes dwell on  anything besides me. When I can finally move I push him away,slightly. "You talk as if I'm a thing that's broken but I'm not. ",I say in the calmest I've ever heard my voice. "You know that's not what I meant", he says reaching for me but I push his arm away. "What I am is sick, Joshua. It's not your fault and  it's not mine. We were all born for some reason. Some crazier than others. Some were even born to die. We can't escape the inevitable ,even if we try. That's destiny for you ",I said.

I felt a huge ache in my chest and found myself collapsing to the ground. Before I could hit it Joshua caught me. The room was fading and all I could hear was Joshua calling out my name.

Joshua

She finally woke up. She looked down at the needle that linked to the drip in her arm and panicked. "Calm down! Catalya! "

I tried to calm her but it didn't work. I leaned in and kissed her. She stopped panicking. I placed my hand on her cheek." It's okay",I said calming her down. "Joshua I have to tell you something",she said worried. "It can wait", I told her because I didn't want her to stress. Annabelle suggested that she should try and relax. She was under to much pressure which could only make things worse for her.

"It have to. It's important ",she said battling to breathe. "Nothing is more important than your health",I said and then kissed her forehead. Tears rolled down her face and I gently held her until she fell asleep.