Harry's POV
My legs carry me faster than they have in years, i don't know what i'm doing - or why the hell I just walked away from her considering she's the only thing i've thought about or properly wanted for the past 5 years. And now here she is, she was stood right in front of me as beautiful as ever, she said my fucking name, and what did I do? I ran. I fucking told her I had to go. And now I may never see her again.
I know that after 5 years I should be over this, hell I should've been over her after the first year but it seems impossible. When we were together, she changed me - I became happy, and then I had to go and fuck it right up. But I can't be with her without overthinking every little thing, I can't even talk to her. Not only just because it brings back too many memories, but also because for some odd fucking reason I seem to be engaged!
Before I know it, I am unlocking the door to my flat and placing the food on the counter. My hands grip the sides as I inhale and exhale deeply, trying to calm my thoughts.
"Harry? Is that you?" A voice calls out from behind the bedroom door. I quickly shake my head to rid the thoughts of my ex girlfriend before answering.
"Just me" I call back, she doesn't reply so i'm guessing she just nodded or something along those lines. I take the burgers and fries and mozarella sticks out of the brown bag and place them on a plate - I didn't really want to give them to her in a paper bag. My legs carry me over to the bedroom door, opening it up to see Ronnie still lying in bed. I force a smile, handing her the food and then climbing into bed next to her.
"Thankyou Harry" She smiles sweetly, kissing my cheek before unwrapping her mozarella sticks and taking a bite from one. "Hmmm" She moans with a full mouth causing me to chuckle.
"Anything for my girlfriend" I wink, her cheeks reddening. She pauses for a little while before speaking up.
"Fiance, actually"
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Lola's POV:
"Are you sure you're okay?" Luke's voice is calm as his hand rests lightly on my thigh. My forehead is pressed against the car window as he's driving beside me. My head turns towards him and I force a smile.
"Yeah, I'm just a little confused about some things right now" I say timidly, he nods understandably.
"Yeah that's understandable. Just don't bottle it up babe" His words are kind and caring and I soon find myself staring at him in adoration at how he can be so damn understandable about all of this. I just saw my ex boyfriend - the guy that has caused me distress for the past 5 years of my life.
"Thank you, Luke" I smile over at him, kissing his cheek but lingering there for a few seconds before pulling away and interwining our fingers together.
"You'll have to direct" He reminds me and I nod, trying to make sense of the surroundings that I haven't been used to in a long time.
"I think it's left here" I point through the glass, the car soon turning in the direction that I said. Soon enough we're driving down the road that I used to walk down everyday on my way to school, and before I even realise it, we're pulling up into my driveway. I shut my eyes, taking a deep breath.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" Luke asks beside me, I nod without hesitation.
"Yes, I have to do this. It's been five years" I shake my head, laughing bitterly. "I need to get over my fear that I seem to have of this place. They're all just pointless memories anyway. Plus, we need somewhere to sleep" I continue.
"They're not pointless memories Lola, they shaped you" He grabs my hand, running his thumb over my knuckles. "I love you, come on" He lets go of my hand and opens his door, walking over to the boot and grabbing both of ours bags - I know better than to tell him that I'll carry mine, because he'll just refuse. My hands fish around in my hand bag for the keys to the front door that I haven't had to use in quite a while.
"I just want to remind you that it's going to be quite messy, um I haven't been here since me and Harry's argument 5 years ago" I mutter quietly but I'm guessing Luke hears because he nods and smiles at me encouragingly.
"It's honestly okay, we can spend tonight clearing it up or something" He says and i nod hesitatantly before turning around and unlocking the front door.
My jaw drops as I look around and notice that there isn't one thing out of place. My eyes travel over to the oven door that was once smashed to pieces. It now looks as good as new. The countertops look as if they're glimmering under the harsh kitchen light that Luke turned on.
"Wow" He mutters under his breath. "Was that some kind of joke so that I could tell you how tidy you are" he winks, nudging me with his arm. I laugh under breath and shake my head.
"Yeahh no, somebody must have cleaned it, I just have no idea who" I say in bewilderment, running my fingers across the clean table, and then walking into the living room, my eyes lingering on the seat my grandfather would sit on every single day of his life. I think Luke noticed something, as he spoke up almost immediately.
"When do you want to visit your granddad?" He asks, placing the bags on the floor of the living room.
"Um, tomorrow morning" I say quietly and he nods. My eyes still dance over the objects in the room that I haven't seen in years, my eyebrows furrowing drastically when I notice the fresh flowers sat innocently on the coffee table in the centre of the living room. "Hmm that's weird" I mumble.
"What is?" Luke asks, tilting his head to the side in confusion. I shake my head to rid of my thoughts, it's probably nothing, I bet the neighbour came and did this, or maybe gramps visited a few days ago, or maybe it was the person that tidied up? Either way, that was the least of my worries right now.
"Oh, it's nothing. Come on, lets just take the stuff upstairs and then we can order a chinese or something" I say, grabbing my bag before he can say otherwise and beginning to walk up the stairs. I hear luke's footsteps trailing behind me.
My eyes wonder over all of the small accessories of the hallway once I reach the top of the stairs, the door of my bedroom looks so untouched that It would seem as if it would creak once touching it, but it doesn't. I slowly push it open and am met with my old bedroom. Everything seems the same as it was all those years ago. My walls are still the same boring cream colour, I still have empty photoframes, and my bedside table is coated in dust. I shiver slightly at the cold air. I laugh breathlessly as I pick up the frame which holds the photo of my sister.
"You know, last time I looked at this photo, I hadn't spoken to her in three years" I laugh, feeling luke come up behind me and place his hands on my hips, kissing my shoulder lightly. I turn in his embrace, my face only inches away from his. My brown eyes dance over his face, before landing on something behind him.
"what the hell" I whisper under my breath, pulling out of his embrace and walking over to my bed. My eyes widening when I get closer to the object, It's a piece of paper, with writing on it - my name in fact. My eyes scan the envelope.
To Lola,
Love Harry xo
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